This year was the first time I didn't get the whole family experience so far as Christmas was concerned. I did get to sit down with mom for a little and have a mini Christmas. ..and made sure she knew how appreciated she is.
Dad and sister (plus respective families) are in NC and this year was pretty tight so I couldn't make it down. I worked (yup, retail) and kept busy (in fact I'm keeping this short because I've gotta go in soon) but it was definitely draining.
I'm still recovering from surgery although there's no longer pain. I have to be really careful the next few months and it's an effort to talk but I've figured out how to lose the lisp. I'm grateful because I feel less self conscious about the whole thing.
The highlight of Christmas was getting to spend Christmas day with some very dear friends (whom some of you know well) in the Hell City/ Red Tree family. It means so much to be welcomed in such a tight knit and hard working group of people that I'm inspired by.
I'm done with family obligation. I'm finished with frauds. I put in my years of turning the other cheek and ignoring the whispers from people that smile to my face. I've never been one to burn bridges. ..I always try to remember the good parts of people I once loved and respected and honor that at least. ..but it's become an immovable anchor. Obviously my path as a creative person is looked down upon. My health issues misunderstood.
Just because you can't see it doesn't mean it's not there. So I'm sticking to the good people. Enough of these fools. I have no idea how I'm going to keep afloat when the Dr. comes knocking but I'm insured, working, and all I can do is my best. I'm going to put every effort into the people that, like myself, want more out of life and constantly look forward. The ones that don't leave a brother behind. The ones that don't just push to be better but work as a team to survive.
Oh.. .last thing. Don't be afraid to reach out. I may be struggling but I always have the time to give from my heart and my mind. It's just the wallet and these old bones that are hurting 😆😘
