nickherdmann

so things are a little up in the air right now... but i'm doing well. i started watching "mad men" a couple weeks ago, and i have to say that don draper is the television version of myself. you can take that at its surface value if you want or you can dig a little deeper.
i'm still having a hard time getting attached to people which i'm sure a few of you can understand. it may not be fair but thats just how it is. not that i don't feel the emotions, i just dont let them show anymore. i give a little and see if that person wants to work for the rest. so far i'm not seeing it from many people.
this isnt a sad blog... i'm not depressed... not angry... just hardened.

i've been thinking too much about someone that came into my life last year and woke up all of my senses. no, its not psycho girl... this one was and still is very special to me. i dont long for anything... its more about knowing why she decided not to pursue things with me... number one being the instability that has been my life for the past few years. as much as that still haunts me its so motivating at the same time.
she doesnt know it but other than my family she is the one person i want to be proud of me... and moreso than any member of my family... her opinion of me matters.

on a lighter note, i really would like to make better friends with those of you that i've met over the past few months... you're all seriously quality people. yes i'm talking to you ohio. so lets get some mini events planned dammit. much love my friends.