I want to vent for a bit, and it's a long one, so humor me:
Ho-Bot 69 (Rachel) stayed the night with Linzi (my roomate for all who don't know), and it just makes me so angry. Of course it's Linzi's apartment too but on top of everything else Rachel's tried to talk Linzi into breaking the lease with me (that my dad cosigned) and moving to her farmhouse with her. And then she feels that she can just use the convenience and luxury of staying with a friend in Tyler so she doesn't have to drive and hour home and back the next day-but at the place that she tried to destroy? That's just wrong. I'm going to mention something to Linzi about it. I don't mind her coming to hang out with Linzi at all because it's Linzi's place too, but not staying the night-using electricity, using water, eating food, using my phone line for her internet booty call man-ho's...That's not being a guest, that's making yourself at home. And that home IS my home too, so I think I should have at least some say in the company that hangs out there.
Another thing is that Linzi told me one day that she feels put in the middle between us. And I can understand that-so I apologized for trashing on Ho-Bot 69 so much and promised Linzi I wouldn't talk bad about her or bring up anything negative about Rachel while around Linzi from now on. And I havn't. But Linzi acts like nothing ever happened between Rachel and me sometimes, and whenever they did something fun together she tells me about it, what they did, who they talked to, what she said, blah blah blah yak yak yak....But I don't want to hear all that. I've dropped the Rachel thing, but I think I should ask Linzi to drop it too. I don't want to include Rachel at all in my life, which means I don't want to hear about her either-wether it's good or bad. But I also don't want to say anything to Linzi because I'm afraid it would make her feel akward, like she has to hide a portion of her life from me or that I'm judgemental and think wrong of her if I hear she hung out with Rachel. And anything that Rachel can use as leverage between me and Linzi she will. Because she knows that when school time comes around there's no one who wants to room with her and she's stuck out there at the farmhouse. (aside from the fact that people we both know are coming up to me saying "Rachel told me to tell you she said "fuck you")
You guys know I don't like to fight people, and I'm not cut out for it at all. I'm such a pushover in that area, I'm too nice, and I can't scam and plot underhanded things like she does-my mind just doesn't work that way. How can someone like me stand against that? Right now I'm just trying to be the "bigger person" and let it all go, but to tell you the truth it really pisses me off. I can't stop thinking about it, and it gets me angry and in a bad mood, and right now I have other areas in my life that need my attention, I don't need to be wasting it on her. But most of all I'm concerned that I might get screwed over in the whole roomate situation. If I lay down rules and take authority to keep Rachel out it will only make Linzi more distant to me, which then would allow Rachel to manipulate her over into her schemes. On the other hand I have to (and sorry for the language) let Rachel be a bitch to me and just stand there and take it silently.
Anyone got some experience in a situation like this? I could really use the help.
Ho-Bot 69 (Rachel) stayed the night with Linzi (my roomate for all who don't know), and it just makes me so angry. Of course it's Linzi's apartment too but on top of everything else Rachel's tried to talk Linzi into breaking the lease with me (that my dad cosigned) and moving to her farmhouse with her. And then she feels that she can just use the convenience and luxury of staying with a friend in Tyler so she doesn't have to drive and hour home and back the next day-but at the place that she tried to destroy? That's just wrong. I'm going to mention something to Linzi about it. I don't mind her coming to hang out with Linzi at all because it's Linzi's place too, but not staying the night-using electricity, using water, eating food, using my phone line for her internet booty call man-ho's...That's not being a guest, that's making yourself at home. And that home IS my home too, so I think I should have at least some say in the company that hangs out there.
Another thing is that Linzi told me one day that she feels put in the middle between us. And I can understand that-so I apologized for trashing on Ho-Bot 69 so much and promised Linzi I wouldn't talk bad about her or bring up anything negative about Rachel while around Linzi from now on. And I havn't. But Linzi acts like nothing ever happened between Rachel and me sometimes, and whenever they did something fun together she tells me about it, what they did, who they talked to, what she said, blah blah blah yak yak yak....But I don't want to hear all that. I've dropped the Rachel thing, but I think I should ask Linzi to drop it too. I don't want to include Rachel at all in my life, which means I don't want to hear about her either-wether it's good or bad. But I also don't want to say anything to Linzi because I'm afraid it would make her feel akward, like she has to hide a portion of her life from me or that I'm judgemental and think wrong of her if I hear she hung out with Rachel. And anything that Rachel can use as leverage between me and Linzi she will. Because she knows that when school time comes around there's no one who wants to room with her and she's stuck out there at the farmhouse. (aside from the fact that people we both know are coming up to me saying "Rachel told me to tell you she said "fuck you")
You guys know I don't like to fight people, and I'm not cut out for it at all. I'm such a pushover in that area, I'm too nice, and I can't scam and plot underhanded things like she does-my mind just doesn't work that way. How can someone like me stand against that? Right now I'm just trying to be the "bigger person" and let it all go, but to tell you the truth it really pisses me off. I can't stop thinking about it, and it gets me angry and in a bad mood, and right now I have other areas in my life that need my attention, I don't need to be wasting it on her. But most of all I'm concerned that I might get screwed over in the whole roomate situation. If I lay down rules and take authority to keep Rachel out it will only make Linzi more distant to me, which then would allow Rachel to manipulate her over into her schemes. On the other hand I have to (and sorry for the language) let Rachel be a bitch to me and just stand there and take it silently.
Anyone got some experience in a situation like this? I could really use the help.
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