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Sorry for my absence, I've been sorting out the issues in my life right now. Here's the update:

I've made peace with my brother, so I'm moving back into the apartment. Hopefully it will take some stress off Jason and my relationship, and make our time together more special.

My father is still the same, but who cares. He deserves to pay my college, he never gave me anything in my childhood-and all I wanted was his affection. But no. Oh well, I tried at least.

~A bit of tranquility, finally. Things feel settled at last and I can stop worrying. Everything has stopped spinning and taunting me. There is direction and I have a plan. I never imagined a desire for school, but being privileged with class and homework again has become a pleasure lately. (Even statistics at 7:30am M-F)

I have so much to be thankful for, I've just really realized lately. A virtuous and loving boyfriend, supportive family (even though things are still uneasy with my dad), and remarkable friends even through the toughest times. I am so loved, I am so lucky, to cry is sheer bliss.