Sorry that I've been scarce lately...but the computer I use kinda got a corrupted hard drive and it just now came back from the shop. So everything is good now and I'm back! I hope I didn't piss anyone off and if I did, I apologize.
I don't know where to start with all that's changed since my last entry. It's a lot. Since I've...
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I don't know where to start with all that's changed since my last entry. It's a lot. Since I've...
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Where to start today? I've weathered a great deal of mini-mental breakdowns in the past week. Today has been the very first day of sunshine in my world. Most importantly, Jason and I have settled things, relief.
I made him choose between us. He chose me on the spot. There's so much more to tell, but I'm exhausted of it. I'd rather just wait a...
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I made him choose between us. He chose me on the spot. There's so much more to tell, but I'm exhausted of it. I'd rather just wait a...
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righteousjohnson:
hey hey, what's going on in tyler, texas? i'm in LA now but that's my hometown!
raedon:
I don't live in Tyler but any place that outlaws alcohol is a fucking pit.. Even if you hate the drink.
I'm glad to be home again...I've been gone to Oklahoma City to Red Earth with my boyfriend and his family the past four days! It was a welcomed minivacation for several reasons: 1) I got away from work and all other responsibilities for a few days, 2) I loved the dancing and art! (and my new jewelry) 3) I got to spend time with my...
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hecklongtree:
I look forward to telling my grandchildren that, when I was their age, you had to change the TV chanels by pushing button on a remote, instead of by a contraption that directs brain waves!
hecklongtree:
I look forward to telling my grandchildren that, when I was their age, you had to change the TV chanels by pushing button on a remote, instead of by a contraption that directs brain waves!
I'm in a strange situation right now. I don't want to be always whining or gushing about my boyfriend on here because no one wants to read that...but a bit of each comprises this entry so put on your seatbelts 'ladies and gents'.
Me? I've dated. A lot. I met my boyfriend and we both truely fell arse over elbows in love-we're even talking marriage....
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Me? I've dated. A lot. I met my boyfriend and we both truely fell arse over elbows in love-we're even talking marriage....
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raedon:
I see that you feel that this is a big problem, but it's fairly normal. Dump him and move on.
Your boy has nothing to offer a 20-30 female unless he has the other glass slipper.
You also didn't "ruin him." A man is just a man, he is what he is.
You can see a man's future by looking at his life from 18-21. You can not change him, period.. I've found that women will try to change the ways of men and they always fail.. that is just the way of things.
I also know that women never, ever believe they can't change their man even after failing time after time.
Well good luck.. He's just some dude. Dump his ass and get yourself a real man.
Your boy has nothing to offer a 20-30 female unless he has the other glass slipper.
You also didn't "ruin him." A man is just a man, he is what he is.
You can see a man's future by looking at his life from 18-21. You can not change him, period.. I've found that women will try to change the ways of men and they always fail.. that is just the way of things.
I also know that women never, ever believe they can't change their man even after failing time after time.
Well good luck.. He's just some dude. Dump his ass and get yourself a real man.
cupofkarma:
hi. i will be going to the dominican republic to see my family and to hang out on the beach. 
I do not know why, but I feel at odds with mself right now. I was hungry and decided to make myself dinner after I came home from work, but once I entered the kitchen my logic completely went into overdrive...and overheat! I've put myself on a diet recently, and am allowing myself to only eat certain *select* foods, and somehow my calorie-counting turned into...
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sydfloyd:
Just eat what I eat. Nothing.
rachet:
I'm trying to go on a diet and I'm having the same problem. I bought a shitload of healthy food and now I'm experimenting with it and nothing ever works out. Just don't put any part of an artichoke in the garbage disposal, it doesn't like it.
I'm supposed to be sleeping right now, but I can't seem to keep my eyes shut. It's 3am and I have a long day tomorrow! I'm about to go back to my boyfriend's house and try to sleep, but I know he'll only distract me furthur, but I don't mind really (despite his complaints of me being fussy when I'm sleepy). Sometimes I think he...
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gia:
Hey sweety! Syd(floyd) told me he was trying to prove a point to you? What point might that be? He asked me how you looked in my opinion and quite frankly.... you HAWT!
hexhexhex:
hello, miss. welcome to sg. this is a cool site but with the playboy affiliation and the sg magazine now... i hope that doesnt mean curvy girls will be fewer and further between on the site. oh well... what can ya do. *feeds these stickly chicks some hamburgers*
So many things in this world confuse me. I often feel my senses of stability shaken, though I cannot place the precise reason as to why such things occur to me. Within the bustle of "life" my time becomes limited more and more each day. I often feel as though something or someone is trapping me in a corner, enclosing me to eternal shadows as...
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niamh:
Yeah, my name's the Gaelic way to spell it. It means bright or radiant. I've never seen it spelled your way.
[Edited on May 13, 2004 12:38AM]
[Edited on May 13, 2004 12:38AM]
raedon:
Welcome to the club.
I generate more questions then produce answers and I push this when most people don't because of boundry/wall issues.
Average Joe Combover would be competely shattered if he lost his walls that he put up to hide himself from his kids and wife to try and fit the 'Dream.'
You are putting up walls to hide from yourself because you can't control the variables outside of your Ego (or "I am".)
You also do this because for 1500 year people have been beat into believing things like sex is evil, slaves=okay, strange people breed evil and spread this to the youth etc.
obviously these are 1) not true 2) harmful to humanity as a whole 3) alienating and sometimes deadly to oursleves.
Life/Ego'ed Contiousness has put you at a very dark time in the history of the current reality you are held in.
I might sound like a half glass full guy but I'm not. Mostly because I've done the numbers on the chance of me ever being and saying "I am!"; All the stars that had to explode just right, all the genes mixing for 100,000 of years of our ansestors, just one variable arranged just 50 years ago with your parents and you wouldn't be here to worry about being here..
We are mathmatically impossible.. I shouldn't be because the odds are greater then winning every state lottery every week for your lifetime.. MUCH greater. I hope you get my point.
I would not listen to ANYONE who is pushing a truth. they can't help you because it's their truth, not yours.
Believe in those who seek the truth, doubt those who claim to have found it.
The only truth is there is no truth except this world is build to kill you in the end, so let the dice roll where they may.
Focus on humanistic needs because that is the system in place but leave this reality better then those before you.
I generate more questions then produce answers and I push this when most people don't because of boundry/wall issues.
Average Joe Combover would be competely shattered if he lost his walls that he put up to hide himself from his kids and wife to try and fit the 'Dream.'
You are putting up walls to hide from yourself because you can't control the variables outside of your Ego (or "I am".)
You also do this because for 1500 year people have been beat into believing things like sex is evil, slaves=okay, strange people breed evil and spread this to the youth etc.
obviously these are 1) not true 2) harmful to humanity as a whole 3) alienating and sometimes deadly to oursleves.
Life/Ego'ed Contiousness has put you at a very dark time in the history of the current reality you are held in.
I might sound like a half glass full guy but I'm not. Mostly because I've done the numbers on the chance of me ever being and saying "I am!"; All the stars that had to explode just right, all the genes mixing for 100,000 of years of our ansestors, just one variable arranged just 50 years ago with your parents and you wouldn't be here to worry about being here..
We are mathmatically impossible.. I shouldn't be because the odds are greater then winning every state lottery every week for your lifetime.. MUCH greater. I hope you get my point.
I would not listen to ANYONE who is pushing a truth. they can't help you because it's their truth, not yours.
Believe in those who seek the truth, doubt those who claim to have found it.
The only truth is there is no truth except this world is build to kill you in the end, so let the dice roll where they may.
Focus on humanistic needs because that is the system in place but leave this reality better then those before you.
we want a picture!!! thanks for not dissing mine ;-). I'm gonna get my hair cut today, I had it up in a ponytail on the pic and now I want to get layers or something, if my hair is long enough.
actually I had more to say and stuff, but I've been up since like midnight and am a bit tired, so I'll talk to ya later, kay?
Maybe when you've got more time?