So did everyone have a holly jolly Christmas?? OKC got slammed by the winter weather over the holidays...they're saying 14" of snow I think now. There were cars stranded EVERYWHERE it was ridiculous. Oh, and my fuckin 30' tall tree in my front yard just decided to completely fall over out of nowhere and luckily it fell away from my house, but literally it just uprooted and the entire thing fell over still intact...it's nuts and bolts ya'll...
Apparently a lot of the snow/ice will finally melt away today, but we are expected to get some more snow possibly tomorrow night into wednesday and thursday...oh well, it's nice to get some actual snow and winter weather in Oklahoma.
So, the other night I met up with this chick that seemed like she might be pretty fun and cool...which I mean she turned out to be fun enough, etc. However, I feel really bad because I slept with her that night and really had no intentions of doing so...I was really wasted to be fair, but still, I feel bad because I never do shit like that. I mean, I have no intention of starting a relationship with her and to be totally honest, I'm not that attracted to her nor do I feel that we connected or that she is my type or anything. Hmm...now I don't know how to go about things because I got the impression she dug me a lot more then I dug her and probably got the wrong impression now. What shall I do?
Also, I really need to figure out how to either completely right off this other chick as a friend and have no emotional attachment to her or somehow drop her all together to save my fuckin anxiety ridden mind. She brings out my anxiety as badly as my ex did which is actually quite rare for me. I mean I actually get jealous, anxious, and worried about her, etc which I don't really do over anyone I don't pretty much feel a strong attraction and am ALMOST in love with. Weird...she can be so fuckin rude and unappreciative though, I can't figure out why I'm sooooo attracted to her. I find her like a she-devil that just keeps me hooked and knows just what to say and do. I dropped $725 on this chick for Christmas!! Who the fuck does that for someone that doesn't show them much love back whatsoever?! A naive dumbass...that's who...i.e. ME. Fuck, I need to tug on my balls and make sure they are still there and she hasn't removed them completely...

Apparently a lot of the snow/ice will finally melt away today, but we are expected to get some more snow possibly tomorrow night into wednesday and thursday...oh well, it's nice to get some actual snow and winter weather in Oklahoma.
So, the other night I met up with this chick that seemed like she might be pretty fun and cool...which I mean she turned out to be fun enough, etc. However, I feel really bad because I slept with her that night and really had no intentions of doing so...I was really wasted to be fair, but still, I feel bad because I never do shit like that. I mean, I have no intention of starting a relationship with her and to be totally honest, I'm not that attracted to her nor do I feel that we connected or that she is my type or anything. Hmm...now I don't know how to go about things because I got the impression she dug me a lot more then I dug her and probably got the wrong impression now. What shall I do?
Also, I really need to figure out how to either completely right off this other chick as a friend and have no emotional attachment to her or somehow drop her all together to save my fuckin anxiety ridden mind. She brings out my anxiety as badly as my ex did which is actually quite rare for me. I mean I actually get jealous, anxious, and worried about her, etc which I don't really do over anyone I don't pretty much feel a strong attraction and am ALMOST in love with. Weird...she can be so fuckin rude and unappreciative though, I can't figure out why I'm sooooo attracted to her. I find her like a she-devil that just keeps me hooked and knows just what to say and do. I dropped $725 on this chick for Christmas!! Who the fuck does that for someone that doesn't show them much love back whatsoever?! A naive dumbass...that's who...i.e. ME. Fuck, I need to tug on my balls and make sure they are still there and she hasn't removed them completely...