Everybody's workin for the weekend.....la la la la la la laaaaaaaaa
Okay, so what up home slices? I'm feeling kind of bitter I guess about a few things. One being these stupid dating websites. I don't really want to say that I think they are just awful or something, but I can't say that I care for them much. I say this from experience too, not just judging them. I recently decided to give them a shot, mainly to see what kinds of single folks were out there in my area and maybe I'd find someone rad to hang with and see how things go from there ya know? While I've seen a few people that actually do seem like neato people, I'm overall pretty dissapointed with this crap. Those sites (match.com, plentyoffish.com, and okcupid.com are the ones I've had experience with) seem to just be a way to beat down "unattractive" people and make "decent" or "good looking" people get way full of themselves. The problem is that dudes flock to these sites based on what I've seen. Guys get on there either because they can't find someone in public possibly or because maybe they have kinda bad social anxiety talking to a girl in person without knowing her...or they just want some damn vagina. So, if you are even a halfway decent looking lady, you will get tons of messages complimenting you on everything from your personality, body, smile, eyes, taste in music, etc. If you are just "average" or below that by societies total fucked up standards, you aren't good enough for the 400lb guy with a picture of him driving his motorized cart in the toilet paper section of Wal-Mart...This totally defeats the purpose of such sites though, they are supposedly intended to "find someone for EVERYONE!" And forget about it if you're a little on chunky side...I admit, I have talked to several girls on these sites and have literally been let down by every one of them. If they are not completely self obsorbed and arrogant, they are die hard religious bible thumpers, have 3 kids at age 24 (nothing wrong with this necessarily, but not what I'm looking for myself) or OU football lovin' sorority girls. I just don't get it...since when did our society decide that everything, including meeting friends, possibly someone to go on a date with, or whatever, turn into a fucking social popularity contest and "let's see how amazing I can make myself sound and look" bunch of bullshit?! I'm no fucking Jared Leto, but I am not THAT bad! haha I mean fuck, I just can't believe it is this hard to even find a girl to hang out with...which in all reality is the extent of what I want right now. A long term relationship or something just isn't in the cards for me just yet as nice as that stability is, I need to be single a little longer before I go back down that road. I'm rambling and that is what I do when my ADHD is really kicked in...hmm...I already lost my train of thought now...oh well. Point being, I guess, is just that if you are a really gorgeous, beautiful, or even just a pretty good lookin gal...don't get a fucking big head about it. That is such a turn off it makes me want to puke. There is no reason to be totally passive about it and put yourself down and shit either, but don't start thinking you are the hottest shit on earth and you're going to get only supermodel status guys comin at you...because 9 times out of 10...guess what, those guys are going to be the biggest loser you've ever come across. Anywase, enough of that nonsense ranting...
I really do want to meet some really cool people around OKC. Guys or gals...or guys that know some rad gals even!
I just can't seem to find the hole they are hiding in I guess...and believe me, my standards aren't even that high. Shit, the girl I've been hanging out with more then anyone is about the worst person I could be spending my time with. She is pretty fucking awful. I've really never hung out with someone this much that I totally can see as completely toxic and/or basically a true she-devil. BUT, that just shows how lame things are otherwise...I don't have shit else to do but hang with her dumbass and deal with her bullshit and constant hateful things she says/does. So, pleeeeease help me find some dope ass people to hang with. If you live in surrounding states or something bring your ass here!! 
Okay, now I'm really done with all of that sort of talk and shit...what do you want for Christmas boys and girls?
I need clothes fo realz...since I lost 50lbs I barely have anything that I can wear right now. I don't wanna spend much now though either cause I'm hoping to lose another 25-40lbs by next May. Hmm...what else is on my mind that isn't just a fleeting thought...next week is my last week of school for now. I finish my degree after next week! My mom almost threw me a surprise party apparently but decided against it and told me she wanted to have party for me...thank god she didn't do that...Someone recommend some good music for me too! Current listenings include: She Wants Revenge, Crystal Castles, Working for a Nuclear Free City, Electric Six, The Faint, Eagles of Death Metal, TV on the Radio, Ratatat, Kid Cudi, RJD2, and shizzz like that...
Okay, peace, Santa Claws Paws, and snowflakes...werrrrd
Okay, so what up home slices? I'm feeling kind of bitter I guess about a few things. One being these stupid dating websites. I don't really want to say that I think they are just awful or something, but I can't say that I care for them much. I say this from experience too, not just judging them. I recently decided to give them a shot, mainly to see what kinds of single folks were out there in my area and maybe I'd find someone rad to hang with and see how things go from there ya know? While I've seen a few people that actually do seem like neato people, I'm overall pretty dissapointed with this crap. Those sites (match.com, plentyoffish.com, and okcupid.com are the ones I've had experience with) seem to just be a way to beat down "unattractive" people and make "decent" or "good looking" people get way full of themselves. The problem is that dudes flock to these sites based on what I've seen. Guys get on there either because they can't find someone in public possibly or because maybe they have kinda bad social anxiety talking to a girl in person without knowing her...or they just want some damn vagina. So, if you are even a halfway decent looking lady, you will get tons of messages complimenting you on everything from your personality, body, smile, eyes, taste in music, etc. If you are just "average" or below that by societies total fucked up standards, you aren't good enough for the 400lb guy with a picture of him driving his motorized cart in the toilet paper section of Wal-Mart...This totally defeats the purpose of such sites though, they are supposedly intended to "find someone for EVERYONE!" And forget about it if you're a little on chunky side...I admit, I have talked to several girls on these sites and have literally been let down by every one of them. If they are not completely self obsorbed and arrogant, they are die hard religious bible thumpers, have 3 kids at age 24 (nothing wrong with this necessarily, but not what I'm looking for myself) or OU football lovin' sorority girls. I just don't get it...since when did our society decide that everything, including meeting friends, possibly someone to go on a date with, or whatever, turn into a fucking social popularity contest and "let's see how amazing I can make myself sound and look" bunch of bullshit?! I'm no fucking Jared Leto, but I am not THAT bad! haha I mean fuck, I just can't believe it is this hard to even find a girl to hang out with...which in all reality is the extent of what I want right now. A long term relationship or something just isn't in the cards for me just yet as nice as that stability is, I need to be single a little longer before I go back down that road. I'm rambling and that is what I do when my ADHD is really kicked in...hmm...I already lost my train of thought now...oh well. Point being, I guess, is just that if you are a really gorgeous, beautiful, or even just a pretty good lookin gal...don't get a fucking big head about it. That is such a turn off it makes me want to puke. There is no reason to be totally passive about it and put yourself down and shit either, but don't start thinking you are the hottest shit on earth and you're going to get only supermodel status guys comin at you...because 9 times out of 10...guess what, those guys are going to be the biggest loser you've ever come across. Anywase, enough of that nonsense ranting...
I really do want to meet some really cool people around OKC. Guys or gals...or guys that know some rad gals even!
I just can't seem to find the hole they are hiding in I guess...and believe me, my standards aren't even that high. Shit, the girl I've been hanging out with more then anyone is about the worst person I could be spending my time with. She is pretty fucking awful. I've really never hung out with someone this much that I totally can see as completely toxic and/or basically a true she-devil. BUT, that just shows how lame things are otherwise...I don't have shit else to do but hang with her dumbass and deal with her bullshit and constant hateful things she says/does. So, pleeeeease help me find some dope ass people to hang with. If you live in surrounding states or something bring your ass here!!
Okay, now I'm really done with all of that sort of talk and shit...what do you want for Christmas boys and girls?
I need clothes fo realz...since I lost 50lbs I barely have anything that I can wear right now. I don't wanna spend much now though either cause I'm hoping to lose another 25-40lbs by next May. Hmm...what else is on my mind that isn't just a fleeting thought...next week is my last week of school for now. I finish my degree after next week! My mom almost threw me a surprise party apparently but decided against it and told me she wanted to have party for me...thank god she didn't do that...Someone recommend some good music for me too! Current listenings include: She Wants Revenge, Crystal Castles, Working for a Nuclear Free City, Electric Six, The Faint, Eagles of Death Metal, TV on the Radio, Ratatat, Kid Cudi, RJD2, and shizzz like that...
Okay, peace, Santa Claws Paws, and snowflakes...werrrrd