nexusdog

That leery bastard now gone, something a bit more suitable. Leg/back 'kin agony... broken hearted & fubar. Welcome to Sunday morning. Where's the bacon sarnies?

I ask you, does that look like a 40 year old? Ego massagers, form an orderly queue...

October already. How much fun has this year been? Fucking shite. Turned 40, got fucked over in a relationship big time, and managed to fall in love with her to add insult to injury... stripped of my dignity, humiliated twice over then continued to do it to myself while the bile was still foaming in my mouth. Never been in that situation before, never so utterly bombed out, dumped, shit on from a great height and I still can't figure out what exactly I did to deserve it.

Unconditional love for her, despite all that happened. Hard to believe, hard to accept even worse trying to get through each day carrying that lot around. How the fuck did that happen?

At some stage, gonna have to go back to work, but still feel like crap on so many levels, don't know how I'm going to face it cos that's another pile of poo that makes your toes curl when you know just how shitty that place is as well.

Fuck, I need some laughs, someone to laugh with... this is getting beyond the soddin' joke.

Status: hacked off