nexusdog

So last nights LAN party was, for me, a wash out. A combination of lack of co-ordination, only 6 people, no external internet connection and above all, my fucking back as usual, meant that I wasn't a happy person.

All the clocks are fcuked cos of DST, so I'm screwed over what time I should think it should be. Oh, and my back is even worse this morning.

I kept thinking last night that I wanted to know if I'd had any emails or contact, and while rolling back in at 3am meant that I had no one to talk to, the fact that there were some messages was really nice to find. Still, there was no one in my bed to greet me or keep me warm or just be happy to share my life, bed and company. Yeah, those things are quite important, I'd say.

The intimacy of love and tactile contact is special and sorely missed. Looking into someone's eyes and being able to grin and know you're in love and just happy to lie there with them, just be with them is special. Same goes for company, being happy to be just be ourselves, as well as share the same intersests always helps and being able to know each other, good points and bad, and still be comfortable and know that person is special. And when it comes to bed, well... I'm tactile and attentive, I like my partner to be the same and not afraid of bored of her body or the pleasure to be had with another person. It's all part of the whole, really. Contact, company and so on.

It's no good, time to try to get some more sleep.