06.20 Just decided. She's gonna get Karma'd. I don't care if fear dictated her actions, they were inexcusable and she treated me with contempt, like a complete cunt.
So I've spent the best part of four months, with the wreckage of my former life in tatters around me, swamped out by thoughts of Her and how much I love her still and how angry I've been and upset at the way I was treated and that she just ran. So much for respect, eh?
In the scheme of things, I think she scored a big fat zero on the Karma-o-matronic scoreboard in every catagory, and we know what that means, don't we, pop pickers!? Yes we do, it means...
What goes around, comes around!
It means every person who wronged me, or did something wrong on a scale beyond the norm, got their payback in return. My father died a slow agonising death from Leaukemia, the landlord of the pub where we were supposed to have our honeymoon, but locked up died of a heart attack not long after. I'm sure there are others but I just can't think of any right now, though I can think of one person I'd like to see get theirs but doesn't seem to have just yet, eh, Jit?
What did I do to deserve all that happened? Well, I guess having a breakdown constituted a way of ending the relationship easily enough. RM have no doubt made arrangements for her to be sidestepped into a cushy little job as seems to be the usual case and I'm still a mess.
Well gorgeous, you had a choice. You made a conscious decision and chose a course of action of your own making. You had every opportunity to show integrity and genuine care. You failed consistently on all counts. You'll be judged and your karma will be dealt out just like everyone elses.
You fucked me over good and proper. Now be prepared for your consequences - Karma's gonna get you.
So I've spent the best part of four months, with the wreckage of my former life in tatters around me, swamped out by thoughts of Her and how much I love her still and how angry I've been and upset at the way I was treated and that she just ran. So much for respect, eh?
In the scheme of things, I think she scored a big fat zero on the Karma-o-matronic scoreboard in every catagory, and we know what that means, don't we, pop pickers!? Yes we do, it means...
What goes around, comes around!
It means every person who wronged me, or did something wrong on a scale beyond the norm, got their payback in return. My father died a slow agonising death from Leaukemia, the landlord of the pub where we were supposed to have our honeymoon, but locked up died of a heart attack not long after. I'm sure there are others but I just can't think of any right now, though I can think of one person I'd like to see get theirs but doesn't seem to have just yet, eh, Jit?
What did I do to deserve all that happened? Well, I guess having a breakdown constituted a way of ending the relationship easily enough. RM have no doubt made arrangements for her to be sidestepped into a cushy little job as seems to be the usual case and I'm still a mess.
Well gorgeous, you had a choice. You made a conscious decision and chose a course of action of your own making. You had every opportunity to show integrity and genuine care. You failed consistently on all counts. You'll be judged and your karma will be dealt out just like everyone elses.
You fucked me over good and proper. Now be prepared for your consequences - Karma's gonna get you.