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nexusdog

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Tuesday Oct 25, 2005

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The NDD saga continues, and it's not nice but then again, that much was going to be obvious. Seems there is someone checking up on me here. Their opinion of SG is that it is a sad, sick twisted site and so am I... go figure which of those statements contains any truth.

So what do I do now? I guess it's a question of being damned if you do, damned if you don't - someone, somewhere wants a reaction; any kind of reaction, so they can get the attention they need and to say 'I told you so about him' and feel satisfied in their own way that being a victim is what this is all about.

Would you like the version where I continue where I left off - ranting when things get on top of me, putting it out of reach of peoples sensibilities, giving plenty of warnings and generally being able to express myself in an adult, if explict context?

Or would you rather I roll my sleeves up and start with the bitching, tantrums and name calling? Would you prefer I go after people with emails and abusive language and lose the plot and report them to their IP's for their behaviour - as what happened on NDD?

I would rather NOT have to waste my time, writing this when I really don't care for verbal or textual abuse or general and downright spiteful behaviour, especially when considering what NDD was supposed to be for.

I mean, what does it say of you, if you still seek me out and harrass me!? You are embarrassing yourselves, nothing more. If it all hurt so much, you know your support networks and where to get help - this isn't helping you or the situation. So either you want to get better or you're just a charlatan thriving on other peoples vulnerabilties.

I never resonded like for like, always apologized if my actions were inappropriate and always, always made no attempt to decieve people. My diaries were always public - that doesn't mean to say you HAVE to read them, just that I followed the NDD suggestions and used the diary as a tool for venting off on some very upsetting and difficult issues I've gone through. After all, it is a site for depression, what would anyone expect!?

I've been email abused and harrassed today and now I've had to take action to prevent this behaviour continuing any more. Why it should come down to this clearly suggests that there are either a lot of man haters on NDD or that some peoples issues run deep and are triggered violently when dealing with men who don't conform to set roles. It's all very unfortunate - but not entirely unexpected given the nature of NDD.

So I've had to waste my time protecting myself, causing more hurt where it shouldn't have to come to that and generally divert my attention away from concentrating on my own sanity and health by dealing with the unhealthy responses of someone else. Christ, it's tantamount to being stalked!

Lay off the alcohol. Get the support and help you need. Accept that there are triggers which will set you off, even if there was no intention of that in the first place. Stop fantasizing. Understand that man, as well as women, hurt and are just as vulnerable as women emotionally and psychologically.

Status Harrassed and abused, needlessly

Condition Positive response, though it's gonna cause some friction, to be sure.

What a fucking waste of time, having to deal with this in such a way that will end up getting people hurt and cause further anxiety and anguish. What possible good did that email this morning do to help?

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