Simple things please me, so some improvement! Monday, got to see my son - just turned 1 and turning into a character at last. He's got a wicked grin and now he's becoming aware of his world, it's made up for the hard work of his first difficult year.
He recognises words and faces and his face lights up when you talk and laugh with...
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He recognises words and faces and his face lights up when you talk and laugh with...
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Blew the bank, ordered myself some fair trade trainers. Rah!
Another episode over, boy is the doc gonna have a headache when I see him next - when I can get an appt, that is. Convinced these meds just ain't cutting the mustard.
Feeling better for sleep, definitely - got around 6 hours, plus an hour or so during afternoon. Still up at 5am, but...
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Another episode over, boy is the doc gonna have a headache when I see him next - when I can get an appt, that is. Convinced these meds just ain't cutting the mustard.
Feeling better for sleep, definitely - got around 6 hours, plus an hour or so during afternoon. Still up at 5am, but...
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Meds+alcohol+lack of food+lack of sleep=one VERY bad mood. Can't say I haven't been there before, because I know it's inside me, just when the circumstances are right, I rage. Lot of it, isn't there? 30 years of repression builds up somewhere, I just wonder if I'll pop completely at some stage and end up completely fuckin' out of my tree.
I would like to post...
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I would like to post...
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As per usual...
... the alarm went off at 8am so I could get doc appt, only for me to fall back to sleep - 4hrs sleep last night since around 9pm; insomnia an effect of either the depression or meds. Got to docs, no appts available, come back tomorrow at 8.30. Gee, I'd love to, but y'know I can't fucking stay awake the same...
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This makes for uncomfortable reading... so fuck you
I am angry. Very angry. Furious, boiling rage, seething with rage, full of bilious spite at everything and everyone.
***I am angry with Her*** Her especially, for treating me like a cunt, after so called adult, mature conversations about whether to continue. Absolutely fucking furious rage at Her because she failed completely to figure out how to...
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I am angry. Very angry. Furious, boiling rage, seething with rage, full of bilious spite at everything and everyone.
***I am angry with Her*** Her especially, for treating me like a cunt, after so called adult, mature conversations about whether to continue. Absolutely fucking furious rage at Her because she failed completely to figure out how to...
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fenstar:
aargh hate is such a strong word.
I suffer from depression too, though mine is well medicated at the moment.
please don't do anything stupid *hugs*
I suffer from depression too, though mine is well medicated at the moment.
please don't do anything stupid *hugs*
nexusdog:
Stupid is relative really... perception is reality, after all. I was doing my counselling studies at your age, back in 95. Hope you succeed where I failed, but I always felt like a fraud, but loved TA & wanted to explore CBT, alas, that wasn't to be. Not to say I can't do it, it's just that if your own house ain't in order, it's a bit pointless trying to be there for others, y'know?
Damn, you're hot girl!
Damn, you're hot girl!
Hmm....pharp
oh look, I been here fuck knows how long and forgot about the groups.... what happens if I stick my finger in THIS one!?
Right now, I wish I had the cash to blow on some ink, cos I'm gettin restless again... feel hemmed in and bored to tears. CBT, where it's at, and I ain't AT IT! So go check out my pics and be damned! Definitely not enough erotica pics out there, ah well, so many pics, so little time... maybe one day.
Gonna go with the...
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Does she get lonely?
Does she miss home?
Is she vulnerable, when you get beyond that exterior?
Does she accept others into her heart?
Can she accept others care about her?
Will her issues override genuine care for her?
Will she bolt or will she be accepting?
Does she understand Transactional Analysis & games?
What's stranger; truth or fiction?
How far do we go to...
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Does she miss home?
Is she vulnerable, when you get beyond that exterior?
Does she accept others into her heart?
Can she accept others care about her?
Will her issues override genuine care for her?
Will she bolt or will she be accepting?
Does she understand Transactional Analysis & games?
What's stranger; truth or fiction?
How far do we go to...
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nexusdog:
1995-1997 CSCT Skills & Theory
1997 - CSCT Diploma. Had to quit that and a psychology course cos of work.
Liked Jung, TA and that's about it. Wanted to learn about CBT but the course didn't go into it in any depth. So yeah, I can put silly letters after my name if I wanted to peddle snake oil, but I always felt like a fake, that I didn't deserve to do what I was doing, despite the fact that I can, and if pushed, can do it well. Just that, what's the point if your own house isn't in order, eh?
Oh, and you're still hot.
1997 - CSCT Diploma. Had to quit that and a psychology course cos of work.
Liked Jung, TA and that's about it. Wanted to learn about CBT but the course didn't go into it in any depth. So yeah, I can put silly letters after my name if I wanted to peddle snake oil, but I always felt like a fake, that I didn't deserve to do what I was doing, despite the fact that I can, and if pushed, can do it well. Just that, what's the point if your own house isn't in order, eh?
Oh, and you're still hot.