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Tuesday Oct 27, 2009

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Sometimes I wish I wouldn't let myself get hopeful....just about certain things.

I'm really disappointed and just want my boy here

Ugh...I am seriously choking on my depression right now and dwelling in pity party land. I was gonna talk about it but it's pointless really. Either you know what it feels like to despise yourself and not really believe you'll have a happy life. Or you're one of those people who think people will get over their depression once good shit starts to happen.

If only it was that easy. frown

Good things don't always happen to people who work hard and try to be good. Even if they do, our brains don't always allow us to focus on them. I think at this point I need to get help...meds...something. But right now I feel like it doesn't even fucking matter.

Wah wah wah...please excuse my whining. I will feel embarassed that I even posted this and get rid of it later.

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tubaart:
You know I know how you feel. Depression really does suck big hairy moose cock. Talking it out does help some -- I'll always listen if you wanna talk. Drugs 'n' therapy help, too. Been there done that, got the prescriptions. wink And while it's hard to believe (or at least internalize) when you're in the lows, it can and does get better. Maybe not best, but better. Hang in there, dear friend.

kiss
Oct 27, 2009
grapecrush:
hang in there, you are too wonderful to be depressed like this. Just remember that there are people out here that love you smile
Oct 27, 2009

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