nex_flamma

So, for those of you who dont know, a girl who Ive been dating almost OD'd 2 days or so ago. She survived luckily, but was in the hospital and was bedridden for 2 days or so. I was at work when I got the news and I couldnt go to her or help her or anything, and if anything pisses me off, it's a feeling of helplessness.
Anyway, because of this (and possibly because of how tired I am from working a 12 hour shift today), Ive been doing a lot of thinking about her and I. I dont really know what I would do without her and I care about her so much and I was fucking crying the whole nite that she was in the hospital because I couldnt go see her and I had no idea how she was. That's not a normal thing for me. I dont cry. It's not that Im trying to be some kind of badass or anything, its just that most stuff doesnt get to me enough to draw out tears. But she does.
So, Im ending this whole dating thing that I have going on with her and Im gonna make her my steady (thats what kids call it these days, isnt it? hehe).

If youre wondering why Im posting about this, it's because Im so happy about finally realizing this.

And if youre wondering why you should care, then you are a heartless Adolph Hitler clone who probably kicks puppies. You bastard.