I have this unstoppable desire to blog this morning. Maybe it's the coffee or my excitment for the day... strange, I'm really not doing anything particularly out of the ordinary.
I guess the prospect of moving back to MN has me excited most of all. Living in a place with friends and women with potential beyond that puts a smile on my face. I really have given up on Houston. The city is beautiful and the music and bar scene are fantastic... but I just hate going out alone. I can't strike up random conversation like some people. Sure, get enough alcohol in me and I'll talk to anyone, but then I sound like a fool. I miss what I know and if 6 months proves anything, I can't make random friends very easily. I need a reason, a purpose to intereact with them. So, I'm ready to move on...
My thoughts while showering ran the gambit today... the one that stuck is society's view of beauty as a whole, male views on beauty and contrary to both of them... what I find beautiful. Sure some of the basics are the same, but what I define beauty as is very different. Sure, most of the women I would define as beautiful would likely be defined as beautiful by the outside world, but the women I can say are the most stunning and radiant would definitely not be considered for the title, by societal standards (is societal a word? it is now
) There is a certain aura, a presence in a trully stunning woman. A confidence and power, and with frailty and compassion mixed in. A woman's personality really does have a lot to do with it for me. I find it strange what turns me on and turns me off. I'm slightly embarassed to say I have a much firmer grasp on what I find physically beautiful then what personality I find attractive. The combination is unmistakeable and I've had the pleasure of knowing many women who are close or are there in their own way. I'm sad to say, not many of them have given me a second glance... but I still feel like I've seen true beauty... she just happened to have all her clothes on.
... yup that's enough blogging for today. Already late for work!
I guess the prospect of moving back to MN has me excited most of all. Living in a place with friends and women with potential beyond that puts a smile on my face. I really have given up on Houston. The city is beautiful and the music and bar scene are fantastic... but I just hate going out alone. I can't strike up random conversation like some people. Sure, get enough alcohol in me and I'll talk to anyone, but then I sound like a fool. I miss what I know and if 6 months proves anything, I can't make random friends very easily. I need a reason, a purpose to intereact with them. So, I'm ready to move on...
My thoughts while showering ran the gambit today... the one that stuck is society's view of beauty as a whole, male views on beauty and contrary to both of them... what I find beautiful. Sure some of the basics are the same, but what I define beauty as is very different. Sure, most of the women I would define as beautiful would likely be defined as beautiful by the outside world, but the women I can say are the most stunning and radiant would definitely not be considered for the title, by societal standards (is societal a word? it is now
) There is a certain aura, a presence in a trully stunning woman. A confidence and power, and with frailty and compassion mixed in. A woman's personality really does have a lot to do with it for me. I find it strange what turns me on and turns me off. I'm slightly embarassed to say I have a much firmer grasp on what I find physically beautiful then what personality I find attractive. The combination is unmistakeable and I've had the pleasure of knowing many women who are close or are there in their own way. I'm sad to say, not many of them have given me a second glance... but I still feel like I've seen true beauty... she just happened to have all her clothes on.
... yup that's enough blogging for today. Already late for work!