nevabelle

so. im not running away anymore
but this is what happened

last night
my dad got home
and was like alfie, we need to talk
and i was like pshhh im going out
and hes like no, sit down at the table (and we never ever ever sit at the table, so this meant it was serious)
and he proceeded to tell me how he found out about my tattoos and that i have a credit card and basically that i fucked up
and i was like ok whatever, those are soley my decisions that only affect me, so whatever.
so THEN hes like
well ive decided that i dont feel like paying for college this semester
so i want you to see what its like in the REAL WORLD
and all this bullshit
and i basically flipped out on him
saying how all i do is try to be a good kid and work hard for good grades
all ive ever done is try to get a 'good job alfie' from my parents, and its nearly impossible to get one
i went on about how i never get into trouble and have a 3.75 gpa and go to church with him on sundays but thats still not fucking good enough
and he said well maybe if you come talk to pastor with me and all this bullshit that "maybe we can work something out"
and i was just like no, im not jumping through hoops to have my education held over my head so you can get me to do whatever you want. you make up your mind, college or not. if you pay for it ill stay, but im not staying here if youre not

so basically i packed up everything i had at his apt
went to my moms
shes RIPSHIT
and like yelling at me
i never once got asked if i was ok
after crying my eyes out for 4 hours straight
my mom is pissed at my dad, and it was all her fault to begin with, she was the one who told him about the tattoos and credit card to spite me because i told my dad about her extra plastic surgery and 21 year old bf

so she calls her lawyer this morning and gets her to make my dad pay for school
so logistically, thats all ok
but im not talking to my dad again for a long time
and this summer
im probably not living at home

i just cant fucking deal with this shit