nevaar

id like to kill an animal with my bare hands. like a large deer or big dog. certainly it would have to put up a fight. i mean, thats the whole point. i think i could take a dog. but what if i couldnt? this question eats at me. im not sure that im alive so what better way to come to terms with my...
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drunk, im drunk.

itrs 5 am here. i drank whiskey and ate pills... the usual. i played poker as well. i was just thinking how emo i am. i hate lables......like im emo the way emo used to be before it bacame a whole cultural phenomenon. i drove a bought a hoagie. its so good. i bet you wish you were eating it right now....
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i trust as far as i can spit
and you can read deep into it
the new york night lift isnt shit
with out an entourage......

this is my home away from home
get a barstool of your own.......


in NYC at bars for the 1st time since they banned smoking......this should be interesting. im puttin on my suit and drivin the audi. i only...
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fuck you i rule.

ah yes. snow. i go the only jersey school that didnt cancel classes today BUT i dont have class till 7pm. my friends are here. most of them slept over after last night. whiskey, valium, and monopoly is a great combination. i cling to things from my childhood. not so much the wiskey and pills part but the whole playing monopoly thing. what if i...
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day 2 of whiskey, valium, poker.

drinking whiskey with Opahl is fun. i won 200 dollars last night playin poker. if every day was as good as this one i probably wouldnt act so emo.

im playing the pill eating game.
whats that you ask?
i steal random pills from my place of employment and mix them up and eat them in different combinations.
deliscious consequences follow.

sometimes i seem to neglect things i love. i forget the joy they bring in to my life. anything that lifts the weight of bordom and breaks thru the malaise of my everyday life should be quickly embraced and held on to. this isnt so however. i love the get up kids. i didnt even know they had a new album in the works till...
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back to college.....
mediocre jokes, video games, and getting drunk, not to party and be crazy, but to feel more comfortable around those whose goal is as above mentioned.

everything hurts. i rejoice in my self loathing. maybe ill get something peirced. that will make me feel better.

(on a side note, i do these entries alot and the only 2 people to ever respond...
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