Tuesday Aug 02, 2005

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Sometimes I feel like I do things just to torture myself. But why in the fuck do I do it?? Do I secretly enjoy it?

???!!!!????!!

I really don't understand ANYTHING at this point. Nothing. It almost even seems like the world is out to get and end my ass.

But no, it can't be quick and painless.....instead it's like this long drawn out process that involves more blood than I can spare.

I'm generally not an angry person...not even in the slightest...but today I'm fuming.

Honestly....is it so wrong to want things to go my way? To get what I want? To get what I think that I deserve???

Tell me....is that asking for too much? Really... is it?

I feel so....empty today, and that is pissing me off. I am fucking the AWESOME & I feel pushed aside and shrugged off by a lot of people in my life...

I'm better than that, god damnit.

One of the things that really has me down is the fact that I found out that some bitch that I went to High School with has the job that I interviewed for and SO DESPERATELY WANTED.

Kind of ironic...doncha think?

Almost feels like a dagger in my pride. Fucking go fucking figure.

Ugh, my head hurts now....so it is the end of my rant.
Sorry I haven't been my usual... funny picture posting kind of gal...

I'll be back to me again soon.

And I will be okay...I always am. skull

So don't worry about me.

ps-I just accidently bumped my poor labret piercing and now it is VERY angry with me.

I want Taco Bell.

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bonezman:
I hate to say this, but join the club. Even those who supposedly care the most for me shrug me off often enough. Best buds, my ass. Just lip service to soothe her own feelings. mad

I won't shrug you off, but you never call so I've never had a chance to prove it.. confused I hate it when people blow me off. So many of them do it without meaning anything by it, but it still can get under my skin when they know I needed to talk to them. So much for respect. That seems gone in today's society.

Hope you feel better soon. We still have a CD to swap when you get a chance.
tripleb_doom:
yeah i have been shrugged off by the world latly we shoudl protest or somthing

or better yet sue somebody biggrin

then theres $$$$$$$$$$$ biggrin biggrin

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