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So someone that was really close to me and raised me just past away last night and for some reason it didnt' affect me like i thought it would I'm starting to wonder whats wrong with me and if i'm even alive inside anymore. I can't help but think i'm a total jerk or is it just because of everything i've gone through in my life that just made me dead inside.

Is anyone else out there like me? Have you lost someone you thought you couldn't live without but then when they past for somereason you didn't feel anything inside? Why is it I feel like I no longer have a heart I'm just like a machine now.
ladollyvita:
you're probably just in shock...and the tears and sadness will come later when youre ready....i dont think you're dead inside *hug*
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