neur0tik

So someone that was really close to me and raised me just past away last night and for some reason it didnt' affect me like i thought it would I'm starting to wonder whats wrong with me and if i'm even alive inside anymore. I can't help but think i'm a total jerk or is it just because of everything i've gone through in my...
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So they released my grandma from the hospital yesterday They said theres nothing they can do for her now to just take her home and spend time with her. Well how the fuck can i do that when i'm stuck at ft stewart in GA and my entire family is back home in TX. Whats worse is i can't even take leave to go home...
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You are the interest I will always have, always a thought of what could be, never a moment of what was. Dreams drift me to a place Ive never seen, fresh waters, blue skies, mountains so pure. Faded memories of a once inocent life two kids who knew the difference? You?
I?
Now years pass, sun rises and falls, dreams come back to me the...
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I'm really soooo Bored.



"I'm gonna rock this gun
Rock this gun like i have no fun
And when you see me look into your fears
i'll take it and switch gears
we see the world today and do
nothing for the infected your just a disease
Death sets you free
But hom much will you pay
The living life of the slum you bathe...
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I wish I would have met you.... But now its a lil late so i'll run but I won't get very far and you've always known I couldn't make it. Yet you let me go anyway. If you were so self richeous you would have taken care of yourself when you had the chance.

Deep in the jeans she's wearing
I'm hooked and I can't stop staring
Oh baby, I wanna get with you
And take your picture
My homeboys tried to warn me
But that butt you got makes me so horny
Ooh, Rump-o'-smooth-skin
You say you wanna get in my Benz?
Well, use me, use me
'Cause you ain't that average groupie
I've seen them dancin'
To...
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So I told myself i'd try and blog some more, but as i sit here and type i wonder does anyone ever actually read these? i need some new pics i know that i'm tire of the one i have. I wonder what it will be like when i'm finally free of this prison called the military i know it will be soon so i...
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So its back to work the vacation's over its a new year and a long hard road ahead of me i only hope i have the strength to accomplish what i have set forth for myself. And it would be really great if i didn't crash into a wall on this journey.

So my new years Reso is to stop drinking and get back to...
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Sorry

So its christmas eve and finally getting to see my family after 2 years of missing them isn't as great as i thought it would be. I now know why i left this shitty ass city. I can't wait to get back to dallas, I need a drink and my parents just happen to stop drinking 6 months ago. It really sucks being alone for...
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I'm in dallas finally got here yesterday morning. Went out last night and had a blast

so i just got done watching the office season 4 which is a cool show i guess theres nothing better to do is this shit hole town so i just stay in and watch tv now i cant' wait to get out of here and go back to dallas where theres civilization. Its soooo depressing here i'd actually rather be in iraq right now then...
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