Ahhh..yes so it seems that i am really horrible at keeping up-to-date on here. Sorry everyone....of course i have not been on here as much recently. SO, please forgive me again. And one last thing. I apologize to those I have been distant to, or rude to, or anything that carries along those lines.....there are reasons why. But still that is no excuse..
JUMPING RIGHT IN.....
I found out earlier this week that my grandfather has been diagnosed with cancer. That is advanced, he's still going through more tests but the prognosis does not look good...(and I'm scared!!
....)He's my poppy, he's a rock star, and caring and thoughtful and a hard worker, but most of all he's what keeps the family together. They don't give him long and if he goes that a whole hell of a lot of problems are coming my way. In terms of family.
Next I also found out this week that,my son Kaden has to get surgery and he's 2. He has to get his tonsils and adnoids removed. I was 6 when this happened, but he's just my wee-little man. This shouldn't have to happen around the holidays...so i'm going back home for when this happens. ANd his father will just have to deal with it.
Moving along.....
My work has yet again screwed me over..and we all know what this feels like. I'm just tired, so very tired. I have given up a lot for this company, and they in turn pay me with screwing me over...la la la.I've pondered getting a different job. But i don't really know. I've worked for the company for 5 yrs and if i stay on this track as many people already know i could be GM at this time next year which would be the youngest in the company. EVER! They have given me a lot also, i'm just tired of this usual Corporate Bullshit.
On top of all this chaos, i just feel very alone right now. I've been in this city for almost 6 months now. ANd i've made afew friends, but not those life long close friends the ones i know i can trust without a shadow of a doubt. Part of this is my fault and i fully accept this. The other part who knows. Many people can't handle me. not in a bad way.. just they've never met someone like me before, or they are scared to get close because they know i'll not walk away from them and they have never experienced that before. Or they don't want to hurt me or etc..etc..etc...It just sucks because those that you think would have stuck around or said they would..have not.
though my closest friend of like 13 years is coming to visit from Texas, and i haven't seen her in 5 years. This is so very exciting i think. BUt other than that i'm just having a rough time this holiday season.
I am still in pain , and still having a rough go at this being healthy thing. I have a few tests on Tuesday, on my kidneys and liver. And we're in the works of discussing new drugs for other issuses. But you know what? I am still highly optimistic.
Well i'm looking forward to being with the family this holiday season. I bid you Adieu....
JUMPING RIGHT IN.....
I found out earlier this week that my grandfather has been diagnosed with cancer. That is advanced, he's still going through more tests but the prognosis does not look good...(and I'm scared!!
....)He's my poppy, he's a rock star, and caring and thoughtful and a hard worker, but most of all he's what keeps the family together. They don't give him long and if he goes that a whole hell of a lot of problems are coming my way. In terms of family.
Next I also found out this week that,my son Kaden has to get surgery and he's 2. He has to get his tonsils and adnoids removed. I was 6 when this happened, but he's just my wee-little man. This shouldn't have to happen around the holidays...so i'm going back home for when this happens. ANd his father will just have to deal with it.
Moving along.....
My work has yet again screwed me over..and we all know what this feels like. I'm just tired, so very tired. I have given up a lot for this company, and they in turn pay me with screwing me over...la la la.I've pondered getting a different job. But i don't really know. I've worked for the company for 5 yrs and if i stay on this track as many people already know i could be GM at this time next year which would be the youngest in the company. EVER! They have given me a lot also, i'm just tired of this usual Corporate Bullshit.
On top of all this chaos, i just feel very alone right now. I've been in this city for almost 6 months now. ANd i've made afew friends, but not those life long close friends the ones i know i can trust without a shadow of a doubt. Part of this is my fault and i fully accept this. The other part who knows. Many people can't handle me. not in a bad way.. just they've never met someone like me before, or they are scared to get close because they know i'll not walk away from them and they have never experienced that before. Or they don't want to hurt me or etc..etc..etc...It just sucks because those that you think would have stuck around or said they would..have not.
though my closest friend of like 13 years is coming to visit from Texas, and i haven't seen her in 5 years. This is so very exciting i think. BUt other than that i'm just having a rough time this holiday season.
I am still in pain , and still having a rough go at this being healthy thing. I have a few tests on Tuesday, on my kidneys and liver. And we're in the works of discussing new drugs for other issuses. But you know what? I am still highly optimistic.
Well i'm looking forward to being with the family this holiday season. I bid you Adieu....
big corporations suck, that is why i left.
ahh, you have a christmas tree. lucky.