So it sounds like I've been once again escalated down to friendship only.
Why is it I didn't hear about this first hand, and only heard about it by reading a public journal? This confuses and irritates me.
Why is it that I keep finding girls who I consider to be perfect in just about every regard, and things keep falling through? I'm really getting sick and tired of it. I'm starting to feel very depressed with my life. Nothing is working out.
I'm broke. I'm hanging from my classes by threads. And I'm once again single.
I'm so completely at a loss for words right now. I want to curse with every unholy word I know of, but something restrains me. I want to just lie down and die, but again, there's something there that says "You can't do that."
I don't know the fuck I'm doing or am going to do.
Why is it I didn't hear about this first hand, and only heard about it by reading a public journal? This confuses and irritates me.
Why is it that I keep finding girls who I consider to be perfect in just about every regard, and things keep falling through? I'm really getting sick and tired of it. I'm starting to feel very depressed with my life. Nothing is working out.
I'm broke. I'm hanging from my classes by threads. And I'm once again single.
I'm so completely at a loss for words right now. I want to curse with every unholy word I know of, but something restrains me. I want to just lie down and die, but again, there's something there that says "You can't do that."
I don't know the fuck I'm doing or am going to do.
davejj:
Welcome to the Wonderful world of Dating, College and Financial Instablity.....
lunna:
Wow, hold on there tiger. I never said friends only and we've never been bf/gf, I have explained complications in my life which you have known about since day 1. I have never said eh want nothing to do with you or anything of that sort. I have been very honest and open with you about being hurt badly, about how I don't feel I can handle a relationship right now but that we could see how things go over time. I told you all of this long long ago before writing anything public so I find that rather unfair. What concerns me is the way you acted the other day when I talked about a guy friend...you acted very jealous and sure jealousy is normal it's part of life but on the level you put it scared me a bit since I already went through the whole jealousy of me having guys as friends thing with Kevin and you started to act that way which scared me because honestly I cannot be with a guy again who is going to act overly jealous of me having guys as friends again because frankly many of my friends are guys. That doesn't mean anything is going on more then friends even if they want it to. You are the only boy I have been physical with in all this time I have been single and if that's not good enough for you and if you don't have the patience to understand why I'm a bit on edge about relationships then fine go ahead and assume things of me and feel bad for yourself. Honey, I have done nothing wrong and was looking forward to spending time with you this weekend but now I am just in shock of your journal.