Ok, so I'm in a bit of trouble I think. Last night as I was having a beer with my closest friend and his girlfriend, both I've known for over ten years, it occured to me that despite denying it over the years I have some strong feelings for his girlfriend. In fact he was the one who alerted me to this fact a few months ago, but at the time I denied it. It also occured to me last night that if I were to go with the way she was looking at me that she might have feelings for me as well. In reality I have a lot more in common with her than my friend does. I certainly don't want to ruin the friendship I have with either of them, not that I think that if she and I ever got together it would end the friendship that my buddy and I have. In fact if anything ever happened between she and I, I don't think he would give a shit. He doesn't like her, he's told me as much, he's cheated on her more than once. In fact the night that he told me that I had feelings for his girlfriend it was after I told him not to fuck my roommate, I said he shouldn't be sleeping around if he really cared about his girlfriend. I should have known though because I've known him since we were about 16 and he's cheated on all of his girlfriends but it never bothered me until now. It bothers me because I don't want to see her get hurt. It bothers me because I would treat her well and I can't stand seeing her treated like that. And it bothers me because I can't do anything about it. I'm not going to tell her about what he does, because that would be completely self-centered and chances are if I did that action would probably be the end of my friendship with him. I might get the girl, but I don't want it to be like that.
Anyways, I'm not really asking for advice on what to do or anything like that. I know exactly what I'm going to do which is nothing other than to continue to be friends with both of them and not interfer with what really isn't my business. All I can do is continue living my life and doing my own shit and hope that things will all work out for the best.
It just sucks because I have so much history with both of them that I hate to lose either one by doing something dumb and selfish.
Anyways, I'm not really asking for advice on what to do or anything like that. I know exactly what I'm going to do which is nothing other than to continue to be friends with both of them and not interfer with what really isn't my business. All I can do is continue living my life and doing my own shit and hope that things will all work out for the best.
It just sucks because I have so much history with both of them that I hate to lose either one by doing something dumb and selfish.