The Lonely Life
I'm going to lay it all out; fashionably of course. This is "the sappy self-sickening failed romance" journal entry. Be forewarned that this could get pathetic and I suggest you advert your eyes.
So I'm back from a casual night out with a friend who I used to date quite often. Nothing ever became of this, no sex, etc.. Well tonight was just like any other night with her.
I loathe relationships. Women scorn me for this. I scorn myself for this. I think its true for the most part, that once a person has been through a relationship they know how to manipulate their partner in a specific way. This scares the shit out of me. If it comes down to me being loved and abused, or lonely; I'll stick with lonely.
That other side of me wants to be loved and touched; to share a passion. This side is sick of being lonely; sick of masturbation; sick of an empty bedside. This side loves to be held and coddled. A side that's easily passive, and too soft-hearted. That side wants the eroticism, a furnace of passion, a flood of carnal lava that could set the bed afire.
Writing that last sentence; I've found that sexual satisfaction is the only thing I'm interested in. Sorry ladies.......I'm just your typical......man.
I'm going to lay it all out; fashionably of course. This is "the sappy self-sickening failed romance" journal entry. Be forewarned that this could get pathetic and I suggest you advert your eyes.
So I'm back from a casual night out with a friend who I used to date quite often. Nothing ever became of this, no sex, etc.. Well tonight was just like any other night with her.
I loathe relationships. Women scorn me for this. I scorn myself for this. I think its true for the most part, that once a person has been through a relationship they know how to manipulate their partner in a specific way. This scares the shit out of me. If it comes down to me being loved and abused, or lonely; I'll stick with lonely.
That other side of me wants to be loved and touched; to share a passion. This side is sick of being lonely; sick of masturbation; sick of an empty bedside. This side loves to be held and coddled. A side that's easily passive, and too soft-hearted. That side wants the eroticism, a furnace of passion, a flood of carnal lava that could set the bed afire.
Writing that last sentence; I've found that sexual satisfaction is the only thing I'm interested in. Sorry ladies.......I'm just your typical......man.
emperorreagan:
I think there are quite a few people not cut out for more traditional relationships...and without the strong religious and economic imperatives driving people to marriage anymore, more people will choose to adopt varying degrees of alternative relationship structures, or no relationship at all.