neoncupcake

Fail.
I had 2 job trials this weekend and both fucked up. The first one was at a strip club where I auditioned and they took a picture of me, scanned my passport and I filled out all these forms then when I went in they said they had no records at all of me anywhere!!! WHAT THE FUCK?
Then today I auditioned as a dancer at cyberdog (met elf ) and they reejcted me too because I'm not a 'trained' dancer.
FUCK!
I actually have NO money left! I've been using a credit card for months now its almost all gone and I dont have a job and cant afford to stay at this place any longer... so I have 2 weeks left here then nothing.

I think I'm going to go back to Berlin.
I loved it there even though I only went for 3 days.

I really believe everything happens for a reason and I thought London was where I should be but since I've been here nothing good has really happened at all... the only fun I've had was at global gathering. Its just not meant to be I think.
*sigh*
Now to spend the last of my credit card on a flight to Germany and hope for the best I think D:
Or I'm thinking of going back to Australia... not Perth but to Melbourne... I have friends there and I know I can get work coz stripping is HUGE over there. Its the safe boring option but maybe I should take it.

I guess this whole bailing on home running around the world thing is harder then it looks especially when you're a broke 19yr old who no one seems to want to hire.