neon

woah! new layout. took me a few minutes to figure out how to update. jesus. i haven't logged in for a while huh? well this is all due to the fact that i don't have a computer of my own and also that i travel between being a complete party girl to a complete hermit. my trip is still on my mind. it's gonna happen. i feel so out of touch with all of you. damnit. i wish a had the means to comment on everyone's journal and stuff. le sigh. i'm visiting the fam in richmond and a couple of other people that i still care about here. my life is surreal sometimes. i always feel like i'm at crossroads and this period in my life is what determines my next year or so of events. seasonal depression is kicking in so i must do something about that because how am i supposed to plan my trip and take care of myself if i can't keep my head above the water. sometimes i wonder why i don't just move to warmer climates. maybe i will. i'm thinking of getting a kitten. i want something fuzzy to come home to every day since i'm being so picky about boyfriends. plenty of booty but nobody that i'd like to commit to. there was that one but now he's dating a girl from switzerland. she's pretty. it seems like i've become emotionally unavailable these days. it's kind of nice until every now and then my eyes snap open and i feel like absolutely nobody knows me. i don't trust absolutely anyone anymore after everything that's happened over the past year. it's kind of lonely sometimes but hey at least i'm not in pain most of the time. i destract myself by going dancing at least two nights a week. it's a good way to get all of this energy out. plus i've lost about 30 pounds since march so i feel good about myself. i'm trying not to become a hermit even though that's what i'm being pulled towards these days. anyways i'm talking out of my ass right now. i've been on this site so little these days that i'm affraid that the next time i make my way to a computer my membership will be expired or something so if anyone wants to keep in touch with me please do. my email address is neonlikespark@hotmail.com
i kind of miss being obsessed with this place. it sure was a good escape.

until next time i hope everyone is well.

xo