neodrunk

what an embarrassment last night.

i feel horrible, yet there wasn't much i could do.

dawn and i went out to dinner with one of my best friends whose lived in madison, wi for the better part of the last decade. we only get to see each other a few times a year when he's in town visiting his family or i make the trip out there. everything was going fine, but once the boy got lit his mouth opened up and never closed. the boy sounded like a huge bigot. it was bad. we were leaving the cc club, and every other word out of his mouth was "faggot". he was just rambling about how he "doesn't hate fags, but if i see one in a bar i'm at... i'll kick his ass".

i felt bad to see him talk like this. i didn't really think any of my friends were truly bigots until last night, and now i know otherwise.

amazing how people you've known your whole life can change... unfortunately not all for the good.

i felt bad to expose my girlfriend to that.
i've apologized to her for nothing i've done.
i was so embarrassed for anyone around me that may have heard one word come out of his mouth, and i apologize to them too.



midday update:
great, for some reason i just keep feeling worse and worse.
sad because it just wasn't one of my best friends last night.
sad because my old friend is now a bigot, and i feel sorry for him.
angry that he would freely speak the way he did, and thinking that it was kosher.
like we were idiots for not thinking like he does.
so very sad.

i hate bigots!