i never know what to say or write anymore.
i am not happy. i am just spinning in circles and ending up in the same place.
the sadness subsides for occasional moments, but is always there lying await in the darkness.
it always makes me laugh when people say "well you don't seem depressed" this is because you are not seeing me. you are seeing whatever i choose to convey to you at that moment, and also perceiving it in whichever way you see fit.
i am not nice. i am bitter, broken, antisocial, snobbish, self loathing, lost......a cacophony of words it seems.
i have been keeping to myself much lately. trying to figure out what to do with my life, and who i really am, want to be, should be...
i don't write journal entries much as i don't like what i have to say, or even the way i word it, it's not good enough.
i doubt i will be making it out to trauma this week due to me being a poor ass wench, with no funds for fun. i'll hopefully still be going out to bento gogo nov 2 though.
also, assuming that she is back now, welcome mayara back home to ohio!
i am not happy. i am just spinning in circles and ending up in the same place.
the sadness subsides for occasional moments, but is always there lying await in the darkness.
it always makes me laugh when people say "well you don't seem depressed" this is because you are not seeing me. you are seeing whatever i choose to convey to you at that moment, and also perceiving it in whichever way you see fit.
i am not nice. i am bitter, broken, antisocial, snobbish, self loathing, lost......a cacophony of words it seems.
i have been keeping to myself much lately. trying to figure out what to do with my life, and who i really am, want to be, should be...
i don't write journal entries much as i don't like what i have to say, or even the way i word it, it's not good enough.
i doubt i will be making it out to trauma this week due to me being a poor ass wench, with no funds for fun. i'll hopefully still be going out to bento gogo nov 2 though.
also, assuming that she is back now, welcome mayara back home to ohio!
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i know what u mean re not knowing what to write though. i wish i could send happy happy vibes your way. maybe ill try and you will all of a sudden feel good energy and will be like awww tahliana sent me that adn you will smile. lol.
"i am not nice. i am bitter, broken, antisocial, snobbish, self loathing, lost......a cacophony of words it seems." gah i can relate. do you write poetry much? its a good way to let shit out...