Life's nuts.
I rarely post here because I don't like always being the bearer of bad news. My happy times are so fleeting they escape me before I get a chance to mention them, but anyway...there is still a glimmer of firey hope down deep inside me somewhere. Hopefully I will re-emerge to the world when the new year rolls around
I recently have been dealing with a lot of ick, like my dog died of Cancer, the same week I found out my girlfriend had a brain tumor, also cancer....with only up to a year to live prognosis. Currently she has dropped off the edge of the earth and I can't even guess if she is alive anymore, it's a long complicated story. I wish her only happiness and peace wherever she is.....
I'm hopefully maybe moving to LA soon. Depends on a job coming through, and it's been something in the works for awhile and I don't know what the deal is..I tend to be a dreamer and tell people, ooh I'm off to this and that-- and then the plans fall through and I'm here staring at the ground again like "wtf?"
If the plans do work out I'll probably be here more often, as I'll be more motivated to wander out in public and actually do something FUN.
meow. I'm gonna stop for now. Happy Holidays to those who celebrate, and Bah Humbug to the scrooges as well
beep.bop&out.
I rarely post here because I don't like always being the bearer of bad news. My happy times are so fleeting they escape me before I get a chance to mention them, but anyway...there is still a glimmer of firey hope down deep inside me somewhere. Hopefully I will re-emerge to the world when the new year rolls around
I recently have been dealing with a lot of ick, like my dog died of Cancer, the same week I found out my girlfriend had a brain tumor, also cancer....with only up to a year to live prognosis. Currently she has dropped off the edge of the earth and I can't even guess if she is alive anymore, it's a long complicated story. I wish her only happiness and peace wherever she is.....
I'm hopefully maybe moving to LA soon. Depends on a job coming through, and it's been something in the works for awhile and I don't know what the deal is..I tend to be a dreamer and tell people, ooh I'm off to this and that-- and then the plans fall through and I'm here staring at the ground again like "wtf?"
If the plans do work out I'll probably be here more often, as I'll be more motivated to wander out in public and actually do something FUN.
meow. I'm gonna stop for now. Happy Holidays to those who celebrate, and Bah Humbug to the scrooges as well
beep.bop&out.
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as far as your girl goes... i did not want to be pushy and nosy and butt into that private part of your life. i sort of wondered what the story was... but i would feel... i dont know. i feel like it would be classless to ask you to dish the dirt. that would just be wrong.
so i wondered if you wrote about it in here at all...
oh my.
sweet sweet lady.
i can think of a couple of reasons that she may have vanished on you... 1. she didnt want you to see her dying and in the hospital constantly and getting sicker and sicker because she thought that would hurt you... 2. she is hospitalized right now or undergoing surgery and is unable to communicate with ANYONE... 3. she thought it would be best for you to live your life and forget about her.
i know.
sometimes people can be stupid. but this was maybe in her mind a mercy to you. so you wouldnt have to watch her die.
on the other hand; my grandma rose was diagnosed with breast cancer when she was in her early 40s. the doctors gave her 3 to 5 years.
and she just died last august. you just dont know. no. wrong. sorry. i meant to say i just dont know.
for whatever its worth... you certainly have me. and i mean that. and i dont say things like that lightly. because people come and go... and when it comes down to it; words are just words. a bunch of letters jumbled up to make sense. but you have me.