im looking at you
you don't know i'm here
i watch from a distance
i watch you in dreams
but i'm trying to forget you
it's proving to be difficult
it seems
i love you enough to let you go
and the way i feel
you will never know
i'll fade quietly away
like a wandering stream
or a river of tears
for each memory...
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you don't know i'm here
i watch from a distance
i watch you in dreams
but i'm trying to forget you
it's proving to be difficult
it seems
i love you enough to let you go
and the way i feel
you will never know
i'll fade quietly away
like a wandering stream
or a river of tears
for each memory...
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nykonnlc:
you are a very lovely poet. I remember reading another one of your peoms i believe. very cool. I look forward to more
amber:
you so perty!
*i want to get my website nenia.net up one of these days. at the moment is just just some links and old photos. i am too lazy to make a good website though, so if there's anyone that has some time to spare and would want to do my site for me, let me know.
*i am looking into buying a new pair of dreadded...
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jlowe:
(re: post above)
money will allow you do it!
money will allow you do it!
nenia:
..if you actually have money, that is 
will you be my valentine? or anti-valentine? 
i really want to get some dread falls..i'm expecting a pair from ebay, but i haven't received them yet...grr. is there anyone that can recommend a good place to buy falls?
my current favourite photo of me..
i really want to get some dread falls..i'm expecting a pair from ebay, but i haven't received them yet...grr. is there anyone that can recommend a good place to buy falls?
my current favourite photo of me..
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mora:
hehe why thank you!
you very pretty, i like both your pics.
i'll be your valintine!!! me me me!!
heh, sorry this psot is random. i haven't eaten in forever, gettin dizzy...
you very pretty, i like both your pics.
i'll be your valintine!!! me me me!!
heh, sorry this psot is random. i haven't eaten in forever, gettin dizzy...
jlowe:
that is a nice photo. u look like finona apple in it.
ummm. where did i go? i can't find myself. 
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sarc:
there you are, right there.
amber:
*Tags*YOUR IT
i have the next 2 days off work. YAY...i wonder what i am going to do with myself. 
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hazardstar2:
...nenia, you make me swoon... =)
sarc:
nice eyes...
blah. someone take my thoughts from me. all this running around in my brain gives me headaches. i'm so so tired of hearing myself complain. *sigh*
on an upside i'm going to see a band i like [ frou frou ] play at borders bookstore today. free shows= good
on an upside i'm going to see a band i like [ frou frou ] play at borders bookstore today. free shows= good
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twwly:
hey hey there! i've seen you on IAM, too!
sarc:
Oh my... there's actually someone on this site that lives within 2 hours of me. I'm not alone anymore! 
i want someone to sing me to sleep 
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tara81:
wow, your soo pretty! :kitten:
lilllie:
dont know...how about comfortably numb?
every way is the wrong way.
we are all so fucking ignorant.
no matter how intelligent we 'think' we are.
all hypocrites. you don't have to admit it.
but it's true. i'm just as wretched as you.
i'm a snob. i'm a contradiction.
i am everything and i am nothing.
sick on this world, and self and the lackthereof.
how much should i care?
there's...
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we are all so fucking ignorant.
no matter how intelligent we 'think' we are.
all hypocrites. you don't have to admit it.
but it's true. i'm just as wretched as you.
i'm a snob. i'm a contradiction.
i am everything and i am nothing.
sick on this world, and self and the lackthereof.
how much should i care?
there's...
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gasmaskboy:
Well, it all depends....
sure everyone can be a hypocrit but that's cuz we don't always notice everything about ourselves....
but some take it to the point where it's disgusting...
and when people say they don't give a fuck about anything....
they're lying....
everyone cares about something despite how much they wish they didn't.
I don't give a fuck about shit that simply isn't important.
not to me....
other people might find those things important....
what's bad is when people freak out and worry about total shit that really isn't important to them yet they worry so much about it anyway....
There's not much I care about.... but the things I do....
I care about a great deal....
but there is more freedom when you don't care about bull shit....
I still say people should do a few things....
care less....
but care more about the things that mean something to them....
and just do what makes them happy and not care about the rest of the crap....
Far too many people sit in situations that make them miserable.... and stay because they think they have to...
or they feel guilty if they change things....
Guilt is useless....
I used to feel guilty for things....
but now I don't do anything to feel guilty about....
I still feel bad for people, or feel bad if I do something stupid.... but that's hardly guilt.... considering it's always accidental.
but I think you get the idea....
people need to let go....
and just smile... and enjoy what they still have.
after all we all die at some point....
so I figure I'll be happy as best I can before I don't exist any longer....
sure everyone can be a hypocrit but that's cuz we don't always notice everything about ourselves....
but some take it to the point where it's disgusting...
and when people say they don't give a fuck about anything....
they're lying....
everyone cares about something despite how much they wish they didn't.
I don't give a fuck about shit that simply isn't important.
not to me....
other people might find those things important....
what's bad is when people freak out and worry about total shit that really isn't important to them yet they worry so much about it anyway....
There's not much I care about.... but the things I do....
I care about a great deal....
but there is more freedom when you don't care about bull shit....
I still say people should do a few things....
care less....
but care more about the things that mean something to them....
and just do what makes them happy and not care about the rest of the crap....
Far too many people sit in situations that make them miserable.... and stay because they think they have to...
or they feel guilty if they change things....
Guilt is useless....
I used to feel guilty for things....
but now I don't do anything to feel guilty about....
I still feel bad for people, or feel bad if I do something stupid.... but that's hardly guilt.... considering it's always accidental.
but I think you get the idea....
people need to let go....
and just smile... and enjoy what they still have.
after all we all die at some point....
so I figure I'll be happy as best I can before I don't exist any longer....
gasmaskboy:
I ramble in real life too....
cuz my brain keeps wandering along a path,,,
and I just say whatever my mind passes by....
like signs on a highway....
only in yer brain.....
and stuff....
cuz my brain keeps wandering along a path,,,
and I just say whatever my mind passes by....
like signs on a highway....
only in yer brain.....
and stuff....
fallen empire
i sit on my throne
all alone
in my abandoned kingdom
i call my home
i knelt at an altar
for a holographic god
a vision without substance
perfection that is flawed
and on this bed of stone
i rest my broken bones
on this bed of nails
i resurrect the things i failed
and on this bed of glass
i break into...
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i sit on my throne
all alone
in my abandoned kingdom
i call my home
i knelt at an altar
for a holographic god
a vision without substance
perfection that is flawed
and on this bed of stone
i rest my broken bones
on this bed of nails
i resurrect the things i failed
and on this bed of glass
i break into...
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gasmaskboy:
am back...
nykonnlc:
that was very cool
i need some sort of release. everything i can think of is negative though. i think way too much late at night/early morning. 
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gasmaskboy:
well everywhere sucks in ways....
but no Columbus Ohio is in no way half as bad as Maine...
I know cuz my friend lives there...
and my other friend who's one of my best friends used to live there....
Come on at least there's some fun Music scenes and neat indie rocker peoples.... with tattoos and cigarettes and booze ehhehe.....
trust me, anywhere is better then maine.....
granted hicks are everywhere.....
it's the ones here that totaly gross me out.....
yeah yer right about music, I totaly dig Apoptygma berzerk and icon of coil, and vnv nation and informatik....
I also dig alot of indie rocker stuff and rap and stuff too...
I just likes music....
as long as it doesn't suck....
*nods*
like Maine....
but no Columbus Ohio is in no way half as bad as Maine...
I know cuz my friend lives there...
and my other friend who's one of my best friends used to live there....
Come on at least there's some fun Music scenes and neat indie rocker peoples.... with tattoos and cigarettes and booze ehhehe.....
trust me, anywhere is better then maine.....
granted hicks are everywhere.....
it's the ones here that totaly gross me out.....
yeah yer right about music, I totaly dig Apoptygma berzerk and icon of coil, and vnv nation and informatik....
I also dig alot of indie rocker stuff and rap and stuff too...
I just likes music....
as long as it doesn't suck....
*nods*
like Maine....
kemal:
teets !
knelt at the holiest of altars
praying to the flames
that devour my soul
swallow me whole
i see your face in the candle flame
on my body written in blood
my skin speaks your name
i close my eyes
as you watch me die one last time
praying to the flames
that devour my soul
swallow me whole
i see your face in the candle flame
on my body written in blood
my skin speaks your name
i close my eyes
as you watch me die one last time
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gasmaskboy:
I live in Maine....
it's awful...
my profile used to say...
"Maine is Crap"
but now they have you put in Area codes....
so I just left it as lost...
cuz Maine is crap....
it's awful...
my profile used to say...
"Maine is Crap"
but now they have you put in Area codes....
so I just left it as lost...
cuz Maine is crap....
