nellichaos

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i'm an asshole.
i worry over things that shouldn't bother me.
i can't start a conversation if i know it won't go well.
i am always thinking, "what if" about the stupidest things.
i imagine a world where things are a way they never can be.

blah blah blah

why is life so good and so bad all at the same time?

why does the grass always have to look greener somewhere else?

also, i wish the snow would stop.

why can't i focus on this website anymore?

sometimes, i miss being flirty with boys

or making out with strangers

is working on a mac and has no idea how to work with a mouse that doesn't allow for right and left clicks!

ugh!


otherwise, things are going pretty well.

Maybe Not Fuck My Life: Update


So, we signed a lease for the "house on paper street" today. i've already packed most of my things. if need be, or if we had a key, i could be out of this place today. we actually get a key on sunday and then can start getting shit done.

i am feeling muuuuuch better about things right now....
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Fuck My Life: An Update

This morning, we looked at a pretty much amazing place to live. I already want to call it The House on Paper Street. We came with applications already filled out and left a deposit to ensure that it would not be shown to anyone else until our applications were considered. I am cautiously optimistic but not so much so...
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fuck my life, for serious.

i am so irritated with everything.

we still don't have a place to live and i am terrified that the place i am going to look at tomorrow is going to be rented out from underneath us because right now it seems pretty much perfect.

i got a 78% on my first exam this quarter. we only have three grades...
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so for the past couple of weeks, i have been a completely unreasonable ball of nerves, which i am sure is tons of fun for all my friends and loved ones.

our lease is up in a month. i love my house and i love my neighborhood. some of my roommates can be, at times, intolerable and passive aggressive, but for my count, they are...
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