waiting for the punchline to a joke that's losing it's appeal
lying on the floor, thinking of you, and i know
i, i know i, i know i'll be controlled by you
so take me away, and won't you tell me how my motherfucking innocence is lost
once i find love, then this nightmare will be done
and i don't wanna live this life anymore than you want to
won't you tell me how i'm supposed to get myself over you
looking to the stars, as if they faded out
screaming to anything or anyone that hears me
but they all seem to look the other fucking way
like i'm supposed to know a single motherfucking thing
let me take what i've learned and turn it all around on you
and i don't wanna live this life anymore than you want to
won't you tell me how i'm supposed to get myself over you
cutting you in half, makes you twice as ugly as you were before
an unintentional twist in a plot that never existed
you said "i don't fucking need you, you can just leave"
"Sinister" L3FT
well it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, don't take this love away from me
because it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, sugah, how'd you get so fly?
i would gladly give this all away, just for one more night with you
i would gladly give my life away, just for one more night
when i wake up in the morning the first thing i see is your eyes, i'm thinking this is how it feels to be alive
i'll be here at the docks waiting for you, terrified that you'll never arrive
because it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, tell me when not in dreams will you love me?
would gladly give this all away, just for one more night with you
i would gladly give my life away, just for one more night
it doesn't matter what tomorrow brings, you're here with me, here with me now
you might not want to catch me, but i'm falling into you
and this might be killing me, but it makes me feel alive
"Wrapped In Lace" L3FT
L3FT is Bender's band who I went to see tonight, even though our breakup is only about three days old. It was sort of like getting a really bad cut and then pouring salt into it to help it "heal." It was a really good show and I got out a lot of frustrations. Any time I was ever sad about anything before, I'd just go see L3FT and scream out all of my pain....now the thing that is causing me the pain is up on stage. In their first song, he was smoking a cigarette while he was playing...which I find to be the sexiest thing EVER...which he knows I find to be the sexiest thing EVER! BAH!
I didn't really talk to him though. My friend, who hates heavy music, was nice enough to go with me for moral support. She's a dear. When we went to leave, he was on my path to the door, so I sort of went to shake his hand and tell him we were leaving. I evidently went into some sort of possum-like defence coma because SHE tells me that he hugged me and thanked us for coming out and said "leaving so soon" but I just took off out the door.....
...and this might be killing me, but it makes me feel alive!
lying on the floor, thinking of you, and i know
i, i know i, i know i'll be controlled by you
so take me away, and won't you tell me how my motherfucking innocence is lost
once i find love, then this nightmare will be done
and i don't wanna live this life anymore than you want to
won't you tell me how i'm supposed to get myself over you
looking to the stars, as if they faded out
screaming to anything or anyone that hears me
but they all seem to look the other fucking way
like i'm supposed to know a single motherfucking thing
let me take what i've learned and turn it all around on you
and i don't wanna live this life anymore than you want to
won't you tell me how i'm supposed to get myself over you
cutting you in half, makes you twice as ugly as you were before
an unintentional twist in a plot that never existed
you said "i don't fucking need you, you can just leave"
"Sinister" L3FT
well it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, don't take this love away from me
because it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, sugah, how'd you get so fly?
i would gladly give this all away, just for one more night with you
i would gladly give my life away, just for one more night
when i wake up in the morning the first thing i see is your eyes, i'm thinking this is how it feels to be alive
i'll be here at the docks waiting for you, terrified that you'll never arrive
because it's kinda like a double edge sword effect, when i'm feeling like i'm never fucking good enough
you got me feeling like i'm better than everyone, tell me when not in dreams will you love me?
would gladly give this all away, just for one more night with you
i would gladly give my life away, just for one more night
it doesn't matter what tomorrow brings, you're here with me, here with me now
you might not want to catch me, but i'm falling into you
and this might be killing me, but it makes me feel alive
"Wrapped In Lace" L3FT
L3FT is Bender's band who I went to see tonight, even though our breakup is only about three days old. It was sort of like getting a really bad cut and then pouring salt into it to help it "heal." It was a really good show and I got out a lot of frustrations. Any time I was ever sad about anything before, I'd just go see L3FT and scream out all of my pain....now the thing that is causing me the pain is up on stage. In their first song, he was smoking a cigarette while he was playing...which I find to be the sexiest thing EVER...which he knows I find to be the sexiest thing EVER! BAH!
I didn't really talk to him though. My friend, who hates heavy music, was nice enough to go with me for moral support. She's a dear. When we went to leave, he was on my path to the door, so I sort of went to shake his hand and tell him we were leaving. I evidently went into some sort of possum-like defence coma because SHE tells me that he hugged me and thanked us for coming out and said "leaving so soon" but I just took off out the door.....
...and this might be killing me, but it makes me feel alive!
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Be strong, but not to strong. It'll all work out....I'm sure.
Cause your a super hot female!
Luv ya wok MWHA!
Yeah that would have been awfule to have to spend the holliday alone. On the positive side you got to spend it with your family instead of someone elses family.