nellichaos

Fuck My Life: An Update

This morning, we looked at a pretty much amazing place to live. I already want to call it The House on Paper Street. We came with applications already filled out and left a deposit to ensure that it would not be shown to anyone else until our applications were considered. I am cautiously optimistic but not so much so that I don't realize that this too could fall out from underneath us like so many other things have up to this point.

There is palpable tension in the house now. Ryan got drunk yesterday and went on a tirade at one of our current roommates. No one wants to talk to anyone else anymore. I haven't wanted to since I found out that we were going to have to move, but now I'm not even making an effort. That's just the sort of person I have become.

I had to drop one of my summer classes because there were only three grades for the whole quarter and I failed the first exam. That's really unlike me. All this stress has certainly taken its tole on me physically and emotionally. I can't wait to get everything worked out.