i'm moving house, so life has picked up pace recently.
i love where i am, and i'm a homely person, but this place doesn't feel right anymore. renting brings with it a wealth of issues, you can't mend or fix things without asking permission- and no one does you any favours when things go wrong. my agent made it quite clear today then unless it's fallen around my ears, she doesn't give a flying shite about what else is going wrong. i'm glad i'm paying her wages!
so i've found somewhere new, and am just waiiting to hear if i can secure it. still renting, still sharing, but it's a better location, nicer house, more practical garden and generally has a good feel about it. fingers crossed.
work is busy, and the pressure is on to deliver a lot of great events with little to no budget. i'm in a great position to be making decisions, if only i could stop my inner doubt, which only leads me to uncertainty. everyone wants and needs me to step up and take control of this situation, and yet i can't.
social stuff is quiet. i don't mind it so much. i realised lately that someone i thought was a close friend, isn't at all. to know me, you'll understand i'm a private person. i don't go telling the world my story. so if i've told you things, its because i trust you. and i don't expect you to disregard those things for your own gain, to ignore my life in return for your own. but hey, fuck you. everyone else will.
other friends come and go. maybe i'm more difficult than i realise. maybe i'm too little of anything. who knows. maybe i'm better than all of them.
you know that electric moment, when you catch their eye, and know you're going to kiss for the first time?
i miss the magic sometimes.
p.s. obligatory underwear shots below. i can't be part of the cool gang until i do this right?
i love where i am, and i'm a homely person, but this place doesn't feel right anymore. renting brings with it a wealth of issues, you can't mend or fix things without asking permission- and no one does you any favours when things go wrong. my agent made it quite clear today then unless it's fallen around my ears, she doesn't give a flying shite about what else is going wrong. i'm glad i'm paying her wages!
so i've found somewhere new, and am just waiiting to hear if i can secure it. still renting, still sharing, but it's a better location, nicer house, more practical garden and generally has a good feel about it. fingers crossed.
work is busy, and the pressure is on to deliver a lot of great events with little to no budget. i'm in a great position to be making decisions, if only i could stop my inner doubt, which only leads me to uncertainty. everyone wants and needs me to step up and take control of this situation, and yet i can't.
social stuff is quiet. i don't mind it so much. i realised lately that someone i thought was a close friend, isn't at all. to know me, you'll understand i'm a private person. i don't go telling the world my story. so if i've told you things, its because i trust you. and i don't expect you to disregard those things for your own gain, to ignore my life in return for your own. but hey, fuck you. everyone else will.
other friends come and go. maybe i'm more difficult than i realise. maybe i'm too little of anything. who knows. maybe i'm better than all of them.
you know that electric moment, when you catch their eye, and know you're going to kiss for the first time?
i miss the magic sometimes.
p.s. obligatory underwear shots below. i can't be part of the cool gang until i do this right?
and everything I had thought i was going to say to you disappeared when I clicked the spoiler. I believed I stopped breathing for a minute. Wow. Hi. ummmmmmmm very, very provocative......
You know once I'm distracted it's hard to regain that focus lol
Good luck on getting the new house. Will you have the same house mates or will that change as well?
and I miss that moment too...... I'd love a first kiss right now.......