i have a question for anyone that is willing to answer it...i know that this is going to sound really messed up and probably a bit self-centered but i really don't care at this point....so here goes...

i just spent the last 4 hours waiting for a friend of mine that said she was going to call when she got offa work...which was 10:30...so i gave her till 11:30 and decided to call her....when i called her it seemed as tho she had completely forgotten that she had told me a few hours earlier that we would hang out and that she would call me...and i was looking forward to hangin out w/ her cuz i haven't seen her in a week...and all last week she blew me off as well...so im stumpt here...i dunno if it's just me or her...or all my close friends for that matter...they all seem to have better things to do, or just "whoops i forgot to call you" syndrom(sp) kicks in....i don't get it...im sick and tired of being stood up all the time....and it's not even like im trying to date and getting stood up...i have someone and i still get the shaft!...what the fuck man....im fuckin awesome and a great friend....im so fuckin sick of this shit i dunno what to do w/ all this....

okay so just to validate my case and what not, not becuz i have to but becuz i want to, here are the things that have gotten under my skin lately...

last week...
1. supposed to hang out tuesday, i called her...no return phone call...ran into her on her way out of the house i stay at w/ 2 people i don't like very much, we made plans to go running...
2. was supposed to go running...got canceled cuz she fell asleep and woke up at 2....
3. was supposed to go to taco thurs (i extended the invite to 3 people) all came up w/ lame ass excuses as to why they couldn't go...even got bitched at for giving one of them a little reminder on my way to the bar...

and now this week..
1. oops i forgot to call you...i will call u back when i finish eating...1 hour later...oh well imma go get "joe"...so i'm not gunna hang out tonite..grrrrr

we have plans for tomorrow after i get offa work...we shall see how this all pans out....i think i might just forget to call her.....is it wrong to feel so sour???...im really sorry i just hate being stood up so much and it happens all the time...and i never understand why....

dammit...im sorry im ramblin about a bunch of shit....

it's too hot out....i have a lump in the back of my throat and it's not to comfortable....

well guess i need to stop this bitterness rite now.....

niobe this has absolutly nothing to do w/ you. this i promise.

well i love all of you...im sorry once again for being cranky..

much love

needie