let me introduce myself...
here i am, a girl w/ so many questions and thoughts about everything and i don't even know where to begin....i'm very tired of living up to everyones expectations of me and what they want me to be, that it's really hard to find out what i really want....i have an idea of who i am but it's just a very tiny glimmer of who really want to be...there are so many things in my life that bother me to the point in which i can no longer take it....one of those things is how disappointing it is to hear negative judgements on people that i care about when they haven't done anything to be judged about....it pisses me off even more when i have to defend them and get laughed at or looked at as if i should know better then to say anything about it at all...even when it is how i feel...not too sure how to deal...judgement is something that i know we all have to live w/ everyday and i accept that....just once in a while the wrong person does the judging and it hits me pretty hard...another thing that gets me all crazy is how people think they know me better than i know myself...and it is true in some cases...but to be treated as if my fate is already decided by someone who thinks they know whats to come way in advance is mindboggling....i don't even know whats to come so u can't possibly know either....i wish the people that need to see this or hear this actually could....i wish i could get all the things in my head straight so that i could think clearly....
so here i am...open for comments...lookin for honesty and sincerity....
sorry bout the ranting....
here i am, a girl w/ so many questions and thoughts about everything and i don't even know where to begin....i'm very tired of living up to everyones expectations of me and what they want me to be, that it's really hard to find out what i really want....i have an idea of who i am but it's just a very tiny glimmer of who really want to be...there are so many things in my life that bother me to the point in which i can no longer take it....one of those things is how disappointing it is to hear negative judgements on people that i care about when they haven't done anything to be judged about....it pisses me off even more when i have to defend them and get laughed at or looked at as if i should know better then to say anything about it at all...even when it is how i feel...not too sure how to deal...judgement is something that i know we all have to live w/ everyday and i accept that....just once in a while the wrong person does the judging and it hits me pretty hard...another thing that gets me all crazy is how people think they know me better than i know myself...and it is true in some cases...but to be treated as if my fate is already decided by someone who thinks they know whats to come way in advance is mindboggling....i don't even know whats to come so u can't possibly know either....i wish the people that need to see this or hear this actually could....i wish i could get all the things in my head straight so that i could think clearly....
so here i am...open for comments...lookin for honesty and sincerity....
sorry bout the ranting....
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killyouridols:
so where does this all stem from?
need2xcap2:
im not sure where it all stems from...im pretty sure that it comes from me needing respect from everyone, and when i do not get it, it bothers me....it bothers me becuz i give everyone the same respect that they give me...or at least i try to....i would much rather be a happy person than someone who is pissed off all the time...