I was just lurking on the boards and came across the "I..." thread in Silliness. I was about to add a little something to said thread but when the ideas kept coming and coming I decided it's better suited for here.
In short, I am fed up.
I'm living in a spare room at a friend's house because Brisbane is in the middle of a housing crisis and no matter how many open houses I attend or applications I submit, I never get approved and the cycle perpetuates itself. I'm into a girl that likes me back but is deathly afraid of relationships, but no matter how many 'fish' pass me by in this metaphorical sea, I'm uninterested because they're not her, so this part of my life is at a complete standstill. A month after vacating my old house I still have yet to see a cent of my bond repaid, money I would desperately need in the event of actually being accepted for a house. I work a shitty job where nobody, staff or customer shows me the slightest hint of respect. My band has been looking for a drummer for almost three months now and all we've gotten were flaking assholes and one guy that turned up to jam, albeit without even hearing us and after doing so lost interest. Then, to hopefully cheer myself up in these gloomy times I buy an old Atari 2600 to have a few hours of fun and distraction, and it's sent to me without the TV connector and is therefore useless - all it does is piss me off when I look at it. All in all, I feel that every aspect of my life is either stuck in a stagnant rut or worsening.
I woke up this morning wishing I hadn't - not in the wishing-for-death sense, but rather wanting to stay in a state of hibernation until karma or whatever it is stops fucking me in the ass. I'm over this shit.
In short, I am fed up.
I'm living in a spare room at a friend's house because Brisbane is in the middle of a housing crisis and no matter how many open houses I attend or applications I submit, I never get approved and the cycle perpetuates itself. I'm into a girl that likes me back but is deathly afraid of relationships, but no matter how many 'fish' pass me by in this metaphorical sea, I'm uninterested because they're not her, so this part of my life is at a complete standstill. A month after vacating my old house I still have yet to see a cent of my bond repaid, money I would desperately need in the event of actually being accepted for a house. I work a shitty job where nobody, staff or customer shows me the slightest hint of respect. My band has been looking for a drummer for almost three months now and all we've gotten were flaking assholes and one guy that turned up to jam, albeit without even hearing us and after doing so lost interest. Then, to hopefully cheer myself up in these gloomy times I buy an old Atari 2600 to have a few hours of fun and distraction, and it's sent to me without the TV connector and is therefore useless - all it does is piss me off when I look at it. All in all, I feel that every aspect of my life is either stuck in a stagnant rut or worsening.
I woke up this morning wishing I hadn't - not in the wishing-for-death sense, but rather wanting to stay in a state of hibernation until karma or whatever it is stops fucking me in the ass. I'm over this shit.
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I have a SEGA mega drive and an original gameboy, but no atari...you need to get out of BRIS, why did you move there in the first place? fool.