necros

just after christmas i met this girl, and i was pretty much gob smacked how well we got on. we would have endless conversations about everything and anything. Now i can hold a conversation but for a girl to remain interested enough to keep it up is pretty rare. I dont generally get girls doing this. Anyways, so over the remaining 2 weeks of the Christmas Holidays we just kept in touch calling each other, txting, instant messenger. and i thought it was all good.
She went back to University down in England after the holidays were finished, which was fine because i was happy just being friends. As i do have a stigma when it comes to girls, i generally dont hit home when im looking to get serious with someone so I knew it wasnt a safe bet going for someone that lives X ammount of miles away from me.
However i did mention a few times that I did like her but i didnt follow that up in anyway really. i hugged her once? (bad thing?- i give good hugs tho).
I purposely didnt make a move to ensure that nothing would kinda sabotage what we had coz it was really nice to have someone taht liked me for me and wanted to be my friend *shrugs*
but yea, yesterday we were chatting and I was just messing about as i do, having a laugh and she was recipricating. and then out of no where i get "baz, i dont think i want anything serious to happen with us". safe to say i was kinda gob smacked. i tried to shrug it off, but that kinda cut deep
the one girl that i liked and didnt make a move on still shoots me down even before i considered making a move.

i just feel cursed when it comes to women!