naville

I've come to the conclusion that people are no good. With the exception of my family who of course will always have my best interests at heart, it seems everyone else I've ever known has always let me down. Am I meeting the wrong people? Why the hell cant I make one good, decent friend I can always count on? On top of everything else shitty going on, my supposedly "best friend" since high school has become the flakiest person I could ever have known. I really don't even know who she is anymore. I know nothing of her and when we talk we make plans but she never comes through. And I don't really need this right now. I don't need people I can't rely on. So I'm just going to change my attitude towards people. i'm not going to care or be interested at all because eventually whoever it is will just leave and not be in my life. So unless someone comes along and proves me wrong, I'll know who is really worth being a friend.

There's no one to blame but myself. I surround myself with bad people I guess. But the problem is, they don't seem like bad people at first. But I'll just have my guard up now. I'm tired of being hurt and quite frankly I'm not going to let it get to me anymore. I'm just going to have a positive attitude because although right now it seems like everything that could wrong for me is..I know things can and will only get better.