I am heartbroken again. And this time its my fault.
I made out with a guy.
I had a pretty fun and amazing time.
We were making out all through the night.
He kept pulling me towards him, embracing me in a hug and would then start kissing me.
It was really good. I really liked it.
Only problem is I have a boyfriend.
And I had to tell him.
I owed him the truth.
I don't believe in cheating and thinking I could get away with it bc karma has her ways of getting you.
So now he thinks I'm a slut and a traitor and I've been doing these things since before.
He hates me.
But for some reason, I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be.
Its making me sad that he keeps calling me horrible things.
But I am keeping my composure.
And quite frankly...I'm looking forward to making out with this guy again....
I made out with a guy.
I had a pretty fun and amazing time.
We were making out all through the night.
He kept pulling me towards him, embracing me in a hug and would then start kissing me.
It was really good. I really liked it.
Only problem is I have a boyfriend.
And I had to tell him.
I owed him the truth.
I don't believe in cheating and thinking I could get away with it bc karma has her ways of getting you.
So now he thinks I'm a slut and a traitor and I've been doing these things since before.
He hates me.
But for some reason, I'm not as upset as I thought I'd be.
Its making me sad that he keeps calling me horrible things.
But I am keeping my composure.
And quite frankly...I'm looking forward to making out with this guy again....
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And I had to tell him.
I owed him the truth.
You made two mistakes. First was you "made out" with another guy but this hardly meets the definition of cheating bad judgment maybe but you are also 20 and not 30 or 40.
Second was you told your boyfriend. What did you expect to happen? Did you think he would congratulate you on your honesty? You told him to make yourself feel better and this only served to hurt him too.
You live and you learn. Your journal entries show that you are a good, caring, and loving person who does not seek to harm others. You will either work this out with the bf or not. Do not beat yourself too much over this it was a mistake and not a world or life ending event.
And if you want to be "making out with this guy again" end it with the other guy first.
Good luck and you will be fine.