naville

it was definitely worth going home for the weekend.
i needed it. school has become so routinary and it's driving me crazy.
the same food. the same classes. the same faces. the same work. even the same shit goes down on the weekend.
it doesn't help that plattsburgh NY has shitty weather all the time. it won't stop snowing over here.
why did i choose to come here? i really don't know anymore.
should i transfer? i just don't want to go through all that work.
and besides, what if i regret it later on?
no, it's not worth it.
if only the weather wasn't so crappy.
if only plattsburgh wasn't as far away from the city as it is.
if only i had the ability to fly.
i'd fly home every weekend. or at least whenever i get homesick.
ughh. it's really unbearable right now,
i feel depressed and lonely, despite the friends i have here.
it's like nothing is motivating me right now. nothing is pushing me anymore.
i'm getting more and more in debt with each passing semester which doesn't help my already worried state of mind.
i don't even feel like i fit in anymore.
correction: i never felt like i fit in bc the kids up here are mostly american eagle wearing, preppy, long island guido and guidette type of kids that i am just NOT compatible with.
but at least before it didn't faze me. i didn't care because i had my friends.
now my friends can't even make me happy.
i hate plattsburgh.