naville

so, i wrote that last post right after we broke up.
i was venting and i was furious, and the tears were streaming down my face.
now, i've got a rather different post.
we talked about things. we cleared things up.
while i feel like i can no longer be with him anymore, we came to the decision that we still want to be a part of each other's lives.
yes, i can hate him over and over, but it takes more energy to hate someone than to love them.
my friends think i'm going to end up giving in and getting back together with him.
i don't think so. i really feel like he has taken everything from me that was there before that allowed me to be his girlfriend.
i don't know how to be his girlfriend anymore. so i'm not going to be.
we are just friends. he is, after all, my best friend.
i'm glad we talked things out, because two years of being with the person you consider to be your "soulmate" ending so abruptly is really hard.
he is still my soulmate, so to speak, and whether we ever get back together will be determined by time.
but right now, i need to get things together and focus on me again.
and that's just what i'll do.