wow-long time no write. That's how is goes, usually. I don't have time to write about everything I do on here. Even if I did have the time..I don't want everyone knowing my personal business. Or maybe I do. no.
So My ex-girlfriend gave me a journal tonight. Maybe I should be writing in it instead of typing all this. Nah. It's easier to do this since I'm always on the computer. Does anyone really read these anyway?? I'm sure there are a couple people that randomly run into my blogs...no one in particular I'm sure. Since I am typing I might as well tell you all I've been feeling a bit crisp lately. Not to the touch but mentally really. I decided about 2 weeks ago to get off a Rx I've been on for 2 years. It made me numb. I was oblivious to everything that was going on around me. I kinda just let everything slide right by me with out much of a reaction. It was good in a way but now that I've actually noticed it I'm thinking it wasn't a very good thing. I was on Effexor for anxiety. It was a good thing in the fact that it took my anxiety away...and a bad because it really took all my emotion and feeling away. That's why I say I was numb. Effexor is pretty hardcore. Don't dare get off it cold turkey- you may go into seizures and who know's what else. I haven't read the insert in years. SO I'm down to the piddly 37.5mg dose. As small as it seems I sure do feel it everyday...I feel weird. I can tell I'm getting off of it.
I'm really happy for the most part. Although small things that didn't bother me before are starting to bother me now. I need to find my own way to look past the small stuff. That's the shit that gave me anxiety in the first place.
I'm going to start self medicating with absolutely no drugs at all. I'll try yoga and meditation. I'm gonna ask my girl to teach me all the tricks she knows when it comes to that stuff. She's a free spirit. A very beautiful person inside and out.
So that's my life at the moment. I'm still a photographer working my ass off all the time.
I love it!
I'll write again in a couple months to let you all know if I made it or not.
Off the Rx that is..
Good night.
So My ex-girlfriend gave me a journal tonight. Maybe I should be writing in it instead of typing all this. Nah. It's easier to do this since I'm always on the computer. Does anyone really read these anyway?? I'm sure there are a couple people that randomly run into my blogs...no one in particular I'm sure. Since I am typing I might as well tell you all I've been feeling a bit crisp lately. Not to the touch but mentally really. I decided about 2 weeks ago to get off a Rx I've been on for 2 years. It made me numb. I was oblivious to everything that was going on around me. I kinda just let everything slide right by me with out much of a reaction. It was good in a way but now that I've actually noticed it I'm thinking it wasn't a very good thing. I was on Effexor for anxiety. It was a good thing in the fact that it took my anxiety away...and a bad because it really took all my emotion and feeling away. That's why I say I was numb. Effexor is pretty hardcore. Don't dare get off it cold turkey- you may go into seizures and who know's what else. I haven't read the insert in years. SO I'm down to the piddly 37.5mg dose. As small as it seems I sure do feel it everyday...I feel weird. I can tell I'm getting off of it.
I'm really happy for the most part. Although small things that didn't bother me before are starting to bother me now. I need to find my own way to look past the small stuff. That's the shit that gave me anxiety in the first place.
I'm going to start self medicating with absolutely no drugs at all. I'll try yoga and meditation. I'm gonna ask my girl to teach me all the tricks she knows when it comes to that stuff. She's a free spirit. A very beautiful person inside and out.
So that's my life at the moment. I'm still a photographer working my ass off all the time.
I love it!
I'll write again in a couple months to let you all know if I made it or not.
Off the Rx that is..
Good night.
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johnq_average:
I'm a political science major (seriously where is the science?) Basically every class I have has me reading like 3 chapters a week out of 2 books per class. I've never read so much in my life. And they're all boring and dry books. Also the writing assignments are nuts three 20 page essays and textual analysis. If I wasn't so close to graduating I'd change majors heh.
super_nova:
Stupid blank post! Was trying to say that i hope you are ok. 