Ahhhhhhhhhhhh my love life 
It will never be simple at one point I had a hope for it becoming simple if I ever got married but that's a fake hope I'm pretty sure. So who is the women that have made me so sure about love?
Sarah Sezo Inanna - Sarah was not the first girl I dated. Sarah was not my first anything. So what is Sarah? She a woman who holds a piece of my heart who I love and want and can never be with. For nearly 6 years I thought I had found "my love". That person who just understands me and likes me for who I am. She told me that she didn't love me and doesn't want to speak to me any more about 3 months ago and it still feels like a open wound.
Sarah was "perfect" for me.
There are other women who deserve mentions though thankfully
Natalia was who I thought I would be with now. Sarah dropped her bombshell and it just destroyed me so much that I realised that if I felt this much for Sarah still then I'm just deluding myself over Natalia and then all the bad things about us came to light. She never wanted me. She wanted an ideal me. The only problem with that is her ideal me is not who I want to be.
Vanessa was a "local girl". We had the same taste in music and style. We were both horny and available this just led to sex as often as possible. Her parents didn't like me and wanted her to focus on school. She dumped me after making sure I satisfied her anal fetish and hasn't spoken to me until yesterday. That's about a year nearly
Jen Ahhh Jen is my stereotypical "crazy girl". Every guy has that girl that he just thought was crazy. I had been dating Jen for about 2 weeks and hadn't seen my family in about a month. So i decided to crash at my parents house for the weekend and catch up with them and my other friends. I got a phone call at 5am from Jen crying down the phone and screaming your cheating on me aren't you. We dated for another month after that before I broke up with her because we just didn't get each other.
There however is 1 golden light is this sad state of pain and that it Tracy.
Tracy is my friend. Tracy was a girl I dated for nearly 6 months and we broke up because we couldn't do long distance and be there for each other enough. We made the overused promise of we can be friends etc. The only difference with Tracy is that it worked. Why did it work? I would be stretching if I took even 10% of the credit for this. Tracy went above and beyond and made sure she kept in touch with me. We have enough similar interests to be friends and care about each other enough to still try and help each other. Tracy is a friend that has made every fuck up with love worthwhile. *hugs* get here soon Tracy we need to have a night out or 5
It will never be simple at one point I had a hope for it becoming simple if I ever got married but that's a fake hope I'm pretty sure. So who is the women that have made me so sure about love?
Sarah Sezo Inanna - Sarah was not the first girl I dated. Sarah was not my first anything. So what is Sarah? She a woman who holds a piece of my heart who I love and want and can never be with. For nearly 6 years I thought I had found "my love". That person who just understands me and likes me for who I am. She told me that she didn't love me and doesn't want to speak to me any more about 3 months ago and it still feels like a open wound.
Sarah was "perfect" for me.
There are other women who deserve mentions though thankfully
Natalia was who I thought I would be with now. Sarah dropped her bombshell and it just destroyed me so much that I realised that if I felt this much for Sarah still then I'm just deluding myself over Natalia and then all the bad things about us came to light. She never wanted me. She wanted an ideal me. The only problem with that is her ideal me is not who I want to be.
Vanessa was a "local girl". We had the same taste in music and style. We were both horny and available this just led to sex as often as possible. Her parents didn't like me and wanted her to focus on school. She dumped me after making sure I satisfied her anal fetish and hasn't spoken to me until yesterday. That's about a year nearly
Jen Ahhh Jen is my stereotypical "crazy girl". Every guy has that girl that he just thought was crazy. I had been dating Jen for about 2 weeks and hadn't seen my family in about a month. So i decided to crash at my parents house for the weekend and catch up with them and my other friends. I got a phone call at 5am from Jen crying down the phone and screaming your cheating on me aren't you. We dated for another month after that before I broke up with her because we just didn't get each other.
There however is 1 golden light is this sad state of pain and that it Tracy.
Tracy is my friend. Tracy was a girl I dated for nearly 6 months and we broke up because we couldn't do long distance and be there for each other enough. We made the overused promise of we can be friends etc. The only difference with Tracy is that it worked. Why did it work? I would be stretching if I took even 10% of the credit for this. Tracy went above and beyond and made sure she kept in touch with me. We have enough similar interests to be friends and care about each other enough to still try and help each other. Tracy is a friend that has made every fuck up with love worthwhile. *hugs* get here soon Tracy we need to have a night out or 5
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shesinparties:
i miss your drunk texts 
shesinparties:
sorry i missed your texts, i was asleep