I don't know why but I wanted to write a new blog and just started writing whatever came into my head. I'm not normal and if you think I am and want to preserve that illusion then don't read this.
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I'm Pagan it's my religion and that won't change. I'm Bisexual it's how I was born and that won't change either. I have a average intelligence and read a lot. I won't act stupid or less secure so if that bothers you then please become more confident. My sense of humor is caustic sarcastic and evil at times. Virtually the only things I'm emotional about are my friends and family. If you want me to weep and cry about something that happened to people other than my friend of family then your barking up the wrong tree. I enjoy BDSM. I'm a switch so depending on my mood or the mood you project I can be either Dominant or Submissive. I'm the "oldest child" in my family and that means I fall very easily into being protective and over protective of my friends and family. I love reading and have done since I was a young child. Opening a new book and smelling the new book smell still puts a smile on my face. I hate waking up. But I smile when my niece Jodie wakes me up by screaming JA or GAY when she walks in the house. I cried once because a tree was cut down because it was starting to grow to much onto a path that people walked on despite it being a nature trail. I have knocked my dad unconscious because he started a fight with me (about 5 years ago). I was verbally and physically bullied as a child. That stopped when I threw someone that attacked me down a hill and broke his forearm and dislocated his shoulder. I have been beaten up by a group of 15 people so badly that I ended up in hospital and don't actually remember anything about it except that it happened.
I fell off my skateboard once into a pile of mud on the way to a rugby match and started crying. My mum told me to stop being such a baby. We went to the rugby match and I watched my uncle play until i heard someone scream next to me. I had blood covering half my face and dripping all over my clothes. My mum freaked and asked what happened I told her the mud had glass in it and had cut all my face. My mum asked why didn't you tell me and I told her because you told me to not be a baby.
I was born after only 7 months pregnancy. I weighed less than a bag of sugar. Baby clothes were to big for me to wear so I had to be dressed in dolls clothes from toy shops. The nurses thought I had the cutest longest eyelashes ever. My mum and My Aunty would both be told of my condition every day even though only close family was meant to know because her name is Linda Cowley same as my mothers.
I learnt how to play chess at the age of 6. My uncle Alan taught me in less than a week. By the end of the 2nd week I could beat him and my mother at chess. By the age of 10 I was the best in the school. I went to 2 School Chess Championships and came in the top 20 both times. I have played in a round robin against Nigel Short who was once The British Chess Champion I was only 10.
I have no idea why I'm writing this I just think you should all know weird things about me.
My sister Joanne has nearly killed me before. She electrocuting me while I was trying to rewire a lamp and she plugged it in and turned it on.
I always babysat Ryan. My mother worked until 9 every night at Safeway and my dad worked nights on the taxi's so he was asleep when it was time to pick up Ryan from the child minder. I would come home from school go and collect Ryan and play with him for a few hours then give him something to eat and wash him. My ear has 3 small dents in it from when Ryan was teething and he would sit on my shoulders and bite my right ear. Ryan said Ja before he said Mum or Dad and he still thinks I'm cool.
I would always leave my toys scattered around everywhere so my mum once got all my toys and threw them in the toy closet and tied it shut with a leather whip
. Apparently she has won it in a raffle 
. I wanted to play with my toys and she wouldn't untie the cupboard so I spent about 3 hours chewing through a leather whip so I could play with my toys.
I started to learn how to programme on the commodore 64.
I'm scared of Fire and Peacocks.
I'm pretty sure none of you will read all of this and quite honestly I don't blame you because it has taken me about a hour so far to write this.
I'm going to start break training my forearms sometime soon. This will include rubbing them against a rolling pin until I loose feeling and then slowly and methodically hitting every part of my forearm with the rolling pin. I will do this for months until I have increased the calcification of my bones in the forearm and I can break solid object without feeling much if any pain.
I'm never content there is always something I want to do or a place I want to go or a thing I need to see. Where is the point in life if your not trying to be better stronger faster more intelligent seeing and experiencing new things?
i need to put my IPOD on charge so I can listen to music tonight.
I have only been careless about trying to commit suicide once and had someone see a fresh cut. He called me on it and I just looked at him let my eyes go blank and told him to shut up
If I care about someone I care about them deeply and feel there pain and want to help them however I can. This has been used against me so many many times but I won't change who I am.
I'm Pagan it's my religion and that won't change. I'm Bisexual it's how I was born and that won't change either. I have a average intelligence and read a lot. I won't act stupid or less secure so if that bothers you then please become more confident. My sense of humor is caustic sarcastic and evil at times. Virtually the only things I'm emotional about are my friends and family. If you want me to weep and cry about something that happened to people other than my friend of family then your barking up the wrong tree. I enjoy BDSM. I'm a switch so depending on my mood or the mood you project I can be either Dominant or Submissive. I'm the "oldest child" in my family and that means I fall very easily into being protective and over protective of my friends and family. I love reading and have done since I was a young child. Opening a new book and smelling the new book smell still puts a smile on my face. I hate waking up. But I smile when my niece Jodie wakes me up by screaming JA or GAY when she walks in the house. I cried once because a tree was cut down because it was starting to grow to much onto a path that people walked on despite it being a nature trail. I have knocked my dad unconscious because he started a fight with me (about 5 years ago). I was verbally and physically bullied as a child. That stopped when I threw someone that attacked me down a hill and broke his forearm and dislocated his shoulder. I have been beaten up by a group of 15 people so badly that I ended up in hospital and don't actually remember anything about it except that it happened.
I fell off my skateboard once into a pile of mud on the way to a rugby match and started crying. My mum told me to stop being such a baby. We went to the rugby match and I watched my uncle play until i heard someone scream next to me. I had blood covering half my face and dripping all over my clothes. My mum freaked and asked what happened I told her the mud had glass in it and had cut all my face. My mum asked why didn't you tell me and I told her because you told me to not be a baby.
I was born after only 7 months pregnancy. I weighed less than a bag of sugar. Baby clothes were to big for me to wear so I had to be dressed in dolls clothes from toy shops. The nurses thought I had the cutest longest eyelashes ever. My mum and My Aunty would both be told of my condition every day even though only close family was meant to know because her name is Linda Cowley same as my mothers.
I learnt how to play chess at the age of 6. My uncle Alan taught me in less than a week. By the end of the 2nd week I could beat him and my mother at chess. By the age of 10 I was the best in the school. I went to 2 School Chess Championships and came in the top 20 both times. I have played in a round robin against Nigel Short who was once The British Chess Champion I was only 10.
I have no idea why I'm writing this I just think you should all know weird things about me.
My sister Joanne has nearly killed me before. She electrocuting me while I was trying to rewire a lamp and she plugged it in and turned it on.
I always babysat Ryan. My mother worked until 9 every night at Safeway and my dad worked nights on the taxi's so he was asleep when it was time to pick up Ryan from the child minder. I would come home from school go and collect Ryan and play with him for a few hours then give him something to eat and wash him. My ear has 3 small dents in it from when Ryan was teething and he would sit on my shoulders and bite my right ear. Ryan said Ja before he said Mum or Dad and he still thinks I'm cool.
I would always leave my toys scattered around everywhere so my mum once got all my toys and threw them in the toy closet and tied it shut with a leather whip
. Apparently she has won it in a raffle . I wanted to play with my toys and she wouldn't untie the cupboard so I spent about 3 hours chewing through a leather whip so I could play with my toys.
I started to learn how to programme on the commodore 64.
I'm scared of Fire and Peacocks.
I'm pretty sure none of you will read all of this and quite honestly I don't blame you because it has taken me about a hour so far to write this.
I'm going to start break training my forearms sometime soon. This will include rubbing them against a rolling pin until I loose feeling and then slowly and methodically hitting every part of my forearm with the rolling pin. I will do this for months until I have increased the calcification of my bones in the forearm and I can break solid object without feeling much if any pain.
I'm never content there is always something I want to do or a place I want to go or a thing I need to see. Where is the point in life if your not trying to be better stronger faster more intelligent seeing and experiencing new things?
i need to put my IPOD on charge so I can listen to music tonight.
I have only been careless about trying to commit suicide once and had someone see a fresh cut. He called me on it and I just looked at him let my eyes go blank and told him to shut up
If I care about someone I care about them deeply and feel there pain and want to help them however I can. This has been used against me so many many times but I won't change who I am.
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Now, will you have my babies.