nathanial1812

It's always such a fine line to walk in life. Life is so full of hypocricy. Every which way you look. Attitude gets you to high places, but that same attitude can sink you. Effort is never enough or you're out of your league. And so it goes on. In my professional life I could give a fuck. A job is only a job and I am entirely marketable and fortunately for me I'm in demand with other companies. So it's easy to not be concerned with outcomes. My personal life however is a different story. There my attitude can hurt the one I love the most. Unfortunately I find it very difficult to reign in that attitude. If we were walking down the street and some stranger said or did things that have been said or done to her by her family, I would be swinging no ifs ands or buts about it. BUT you just can't do that with family and I get that I really do. She doesn't need me to rub my opinions in. At a time when she feels totally shitty, she needs re-enforcement. But I'm not capable of that! And I think that hurts her just as much. I just can't beleive some members of her family can be so wantonly and I do believe wantonly ignorant to her. I could so go on but it won't accomplish anything constructive. Life is hypocricy and I don't see any way around it. It is so amazing the damage family can do. FAMILY! of all the fucking things in life, family should be the safest place. And I know I react all the worse do to my own issues with my own sperm donor. BUT WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!?