nataleigh

so the updating junkie has returned and she is most tired. so first for clarification.

i got rejected for shooting with oryx. not for a set. so i am not sure which is worse.

so i have been in tdot the past couple of days having quite the temulchuous time with adrian. he got invited last minute to go to a cottage with two of his buddies. he neglected to inform them that he had plans to come to ajax to see me. that was the first thing that pissed me off. if he had acknowledged his plans with me, that would have been nice even if he asked to reschedule. so then he didn't ask me to reschedule. so then i was finally like, okay just go, cuz i didn't want to burst his bubble. but i was pissed. i am tired of feeling liek some person in his life that he can see whenever he pleases. so anyways, that day i also had to go and get the mornign after pill. that was a lot of fun. then adrian called and wanted to come over there, which was clearly not cool so i left to go and meet up with him which upset the person i was chillgin with, which in turn upset her friend who was being ignored while she was comforting me while i was crying.

so i left and went and met up with adrian and the fighting continued. i couldnt' understand why he was being such an asshole. i tried to fix things, he didn't seem too down for that. long story short, i told him he coudl go even tho it would hurt me, he decided to go, i got really sick from the morning after pill, started crying, he started crying, he apologized for being such an ass then we went to sleep. the next mornign i woke up still sick. i cried some more. told him how hurt i was that he could just dismiss my feelings liek this and leave to go to the cottage knowing that it would damage our relationship. he flip-flopped on what to do and we both cried somemore. then he held me and told me that he loved me so much and that being with me was far more important to him then goign to the cottage for two days.

i still felt really bad though. but i knew that when he came back, i would be so hurt by the fact that he chose them over our relationship. and that tore me up inside. but at the end of the day, everything was fine. we cuddled and watched tv adn laughed and drank beer.

on another note: i got called back today for a second interview at boathouse. wish me luck everyone! i will post with the details tomorrow after adrian leaves.