Quick catch up:
Monday night I went to salsa with my housemate, who was hoping to get a 2nd date with a guy from there.
I went to the intermediate class because the begginers was too easy last time. It was cool. then I went to the 2nd intermediate class, (there are 2 classes in one night,) and it was ridiculously difficult. It was a totally different style and the guy was saying instructions for moves in Spanish. I kind of had fun but it knocked my confidence a bit for some reason. afterwards they put music on and you can just dance with whoever you like. My housemate is always off dancing and I usually end up sitting drinking on my own because I'm not confident enough with the moves yet to ask girls to dance. So I decided to walk home because I was feeling a bit down and didn't want to stay drinking on my own and my housemate who had driven us there was going to be staying on for a while.
I wandered home, lonely as a cloud and got a pizza. My housemate called at that point to say she was already home. I didn't have my keys on me so I made sure she was staying up. I got to my door and my other housemate answered by saying, "did you hear any of that?" I said no, she said "Fucking men!" and stormed off upstairs. I blinked a couple of times, wondered what that was about and went inside.
As I was eating, my housemate who had answered the door came in and started on at me for being quiet. I explained that I was in a wierd mood and that I'd been a bit taken aback by her behaviour. She then decided to have a go at me for not understanding that she was joking around, (she gets aggressive when she's drunk sometimes,) and told me I "shouldn't take my wierd mood out on friends," which I didn't think I'd done. I went to bed shortly after, a bit pissed off.
Last night I picked up S and headed over to E's house. E fed us both a great veggie Thai curry which nearly made me burst. We all talked and laughed and smoked and generally had a good time.
I'd had a couple of calls during the evening, one of which was from my ex. I rang her back and she'd seen on Facebook that my status had said "Mike is fail." which was partly because I felt crappy that day and because I thought it was funny, so she'd called to see if I was ok, which was nice.
Then she asked where I was so I said a friend's house. She asked which friend so I explained about E and how we'd met. She asked if we were seeing each other and I told her we were just friends. She said she'd thought maybe we were going out as she'd seen my facebook interview, (an app that asks you loads of random questions for your friends to read,) and one of the questions was "Do you like anyone at the moment?" to which my reply was "No. Kind of. No. It's complicated."
I said no I wasn't seeing anyone and she asked why. I just had to say, "because of no opportunity and because I'm not really interested at the moment." partly because I was walking to a shop with S at the time and didn't want to talk about it.
Anyway I ended up asking her and it turns out she's seeing some guy but, "doesn't know where it will go yet." there was an uncomfortable part and I made my excuses and rang off.
Thing is I know I have no right to be upset - we've been broken up for months but it's never easy to hear that your ex has moved on, especially when you haven't met anyone new yourself yet. In this case it's even harder because we broke up because she moved town to take a job and "wouldn't have time for a relationship". Well apparently she's got time to see someone, just not me.
That really hurt.
Monday night I went to salsa with my housemate, who was hoping to get a 2nd date with a guy from there.
I went to the intermediate class because the begginers was too easy last time. It was cool. then I went to the 2nd intermediate class, (there are 2 classes in one night,) and it was ridiculously difficult. It was a totally different style and the guy was saying instructions for moves in Spanish. I kind of had fun but it knocked my confidence a bit for some reason. afterwards they put music on and you can just dance with whoever you like. My housemate is always off dancing and I usually end up sitting drinking on my own because I'm not confident enough with the moves yet to ask girls to dance. So I decided to walk home because I was feeling a bit down and didn't want to stay drinking on my own and my housemate who had driven us there was going to be staying on for a while.
I wandered home, lonely as a cloud and got a pizza. My housemate called at that point to say she was already home. I didn't have my keys on me so I made sure she was staying up. I got to my door and my other housemate answered by saying, "did you hear any of that?" I said no, she said "Fucking men!" and stormed off upstairs. I blinked a couple of times, wondered what that was about and went inside.
As I was eating, my housemate who had answered the door came in and started on at me for being quiet. I explained that I was in a wierd mood and that I'd been a bit taken aback by her behaviour. She then decided to have a go at me for not understanding that she was joking around, (she gets aggressive when she's drunk sometimes,) and told me I "shouldn't take my wierd mood out on friends," which I didn't think I'd done. I went to bed shortly after, a bit pissed off.
Last night I picked up S and headed over to E's house. E fed us both a great veggie Thai curry which nearly made me burst. We all talked and laughed and smoked and generally had a good time.
I'd had a couple of calls during the evening, one of which was from my ex. I rang her back and she'd seen on Facebook that my status had said "Mike is fail." which was partly because I felt crappy that day and because I thought it was funny, so she'd called to see if I was ok, which was nice.
Then she asked where I was so I said a friend's house. She asked which friend so I explained about E and how we'd met. She asked if we were seeing each other and I told her we were just friends. She said she'd thought maybe we were going out as she'd seen my facebook interview, (an app that asks you loads of random questions for your friends to read,) and one of the questions was "Do you like anyone at the moment?" to which my reply was "No. Kind of. No. It's complicated."
I said no I wasn't seeing anyone and she asked why. I just had to say, "because of no opportunity and because I'm not really interested at the moment." partly because I was walking to a shop with S at the time and didn't want to talk about it.
Anyway I ended up asking her and it turns out she's seeing some guy but, "doesn't know where it will go yet." there was an uncomfortable part and I made my excuses and rang off.
Thing is I know I have no right to be upset - we've been broken up for months but it's never easy to hear that your ex has moved on, especially when you haven't met anyone new yourself yet. In this case it's even harder because we broke up because she moved town to take a job and "wouldn't have time for a relationship". Well apparently she's got time to see someone, just not me.
That really hurt.