is definitely an accurate word for how I feel right now. I started modelling professionally about a month ago, did a few TFP shoots to learn and get a feel for being naked in front of the camera, even did a paid shoot for a local magazine which is just a flesh mag that pays local chicks to get their kit off. It was an excellent feeling, knowing that my work would be well rewarded.
The difference I learned quite quickly between free and paid shoots is that because money is involved, things are more organized so the shoot goes smoothly. They don't want to waste time with thinking of the next direction, the next pose, or the next camera setting. They plan it out and get it done, and the end result is not disappointing. Modelling has bettered my understanding of being a good photographer as well - I have another shoot for a young lady I used to go to school with.
My parents have suggested I get into modelling for a very long time. When I told my Dad I was planning to, he just said "about time!".. Of course he thinks I'm beautiful, he made me.. LOL.. but in the end it was my partner who gave me a nudge toward camming. I have bold ultimate goals now of becoming a major porn starlet! Scarlet Stark is my porn name, which my friends think is awesome. An ode to Iron Man and Game of Thrones.
A few people asked me whether I was going to be a SuicideGirl. I guess it's my hair, since I don't have any piercings (anymore) or tattoos (yet) and knowing the process isn't easy, I just said "oh yeah, probably not"... but after some thought, I figure why not at least TRY.
So that's what has been going on with me :)
Jotting lots of shoots into my diary, living in a lovely house with my partner and gay BFF, cooking and cleaning and of course LOTS of Gaming! GLHF