narcissistzero

I don't know how this motherfucker can stand to be in a desert for a year or more...



LDR is killing me... not having a real place of my/our own is killing me... not knowing where I am going to live in a couple months is killing me. I'm a man who needs firm grounding, if that makes sense, to feel good. I know it sounds whiney when you look at that guy, far off from home and maybe about to die for no real reason... but I am complaining anyway.

My girlfriend asked me recently if I wanted to really have an MFM threesome with her... I don't quite know how to explain that I both really, really do... and completely don't... all at the same time. She acted like it made sense, but I'm sure it's a bit off for her. I really want to see her get DP'd... I really want to see her do some of the dirtiest things you can and know she's enjoying herself... I really want to see her have intense sexual pleasure of he most carnal nature all around her... At the same time, she is the woman who has finally made me fully and completely believe in love, an intense and ultimate connection between two people... TWO people...

Arggg.

It feels odd writing that in a blog she will read, but I'm pretty sure I have said that to her directly... Oh well, fuck it.

No other news... job hunting, got one? Apartment hunting, got one? I thought not.

This could be a return to regular blogging/posting... but don't count on anything